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Tuesday, May 31, 2011
am i like a pea? peas stay as peas. they dont change. they taste bitter if cooked unproperly. (i hate those that taste like that) they taste okay as snacks though. (wasabi peas! umai! ^^) do peas grow? i think they stay the same size forever. i am small. but if i am nurtured in a certain way i believe i'll taste yummy.. okay i mean i'll shine. hm. |
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what's the point? what's the point? what's the point, if im never good enough in your eyes, if we're never good enough, what's the point? stupid. sometimes.. all we need is someone to believe in us. have faith in us. yea, look down on me. i'll.. prove you wrong? i dont know if i can do so already. tired. i may just throw in the towel, give up, and say bye. isnt it the easiest way out? (: tell me, what's the point then. |
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Sunday, May 29, 2011
 okay ignore the face, i like my thighs here. :D damn thin.  i ate this for dinner. like, 5 slices? :)and alot of popcorn chicken. and a slice of cake. and vvvvvvvvvvv nb cb big but fking sour strawberries. ^-^ |
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Friday, May 27, 2011
  mochacafe.info (: pictures like these inspires me!~ someday i'll be able to do it too. i know i will. i will. |
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 this is how i look at home. cui ttm. =D |
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Thursday, May 26, 2011
i didnt mean it.. i really didnt.. im sorry.. i wanna rewind the days. im sorry... maybe it was a mistake to begin with.. it was.. i dont know how much longer can i keep up with the smiles. should i? |
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Many of us have experienced what is commonly referred to as a Freudian slip. These misstatements are believed to reveal underlying, unconscious thoughts or feelings. Consider this example: James has just started a new relationship with a woman he met at school. While talking to her one afternoon, he accidentally calls her by his ex-girlfriend's name. If you were in this situation, how would you explain this mistake? Many of us might blame the slip on distraction or describe it as a simple accident. However, a psychoanalytic theorist might tell you that this is much more than a random accident. The psychoanalytic view holds that there are inner forces outside of your awareness that are directing your behavior. For example, a psychoanalyst might say that James misspoke due to unresolved feelings for his ex or perhaps because of doubt about his new relationship. A Freudian slip is a verbal or memory mistake that is believed to be linked to the unconscious mind. Common examples include an individual calling his or her spouse by an ex's name, saying the wrong word or even misinterpreting a written or spoken word. LOL. WOW. freud's psychoanalytic theory. (Y) |
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Wednesday, May 25, 2011
Softball is one of the amazing things I found in poly. Its getting interesting! I'm happy that we finally got our own coach. I can see hope.. I've not given up on myself! I really hope I can take away something really memorable before I graduate from dadp. Really. It'll take time im sure, But we must believe, Believe that we can do it. That's how big dreams are accomplished, isn't it? I saw hope in myself, I really did. In today's society, we are most often bothered about ourselves. When was the last time you thought for someone without placing yourself as first priority? Think about it. Coach Marcus said that it's good we aren't as good yet, Cause it means that we can be better. Suddenlynim thankful for my flaws. LOL. Will he become another mdm Qin that I wanna do proud for? Hm.. (: |
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Tuesday, May 24, 2011
 wanshu, kim, leon, tika, vanessa, aisyah and enqi had a small talk on what we wanna be in the future. realized 01 has alot of aspiring teachers headed for the NIE. van asked me, any regrets joining this course? aisyah asked me, will i still continue the vet dream? I.. doubt i will. aisyah highlighted that it'll be very tough, i have to go back to the beginning. i know.. but then, i told her that, well, who knows, something may just inspire me at the end of my graduation? we never know what the future holds.. one thing i know, is that i really really really want to bake yummy, nice, healthy, pretty, pastries! (: not for commercial purposes... when you do something solely for monetary purposes, it loses its meaning.. i know money is still the core concern in a business and in everything. but.. I want to be able to sell the stuffs i bake to make people happy. really! like when they eat it, its not just another piece of cake kinda thing. its.. something special. something, for you. =] inspiring stuffxzx. |
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i swear im gonna go crazy soon. stress. stress. stress. okay deep down im worried i cant finish the remaining two papers. but i know i can do it. so i dont know what am i worrying for. -.- wa.. now 2 research paper nia, stresss till got pimples. then fyp how?! omg acne breakout. cb!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! okay i need to go on a healthy diet. no fried food. seriously no no no. i havent been eating the oh-so-easily-accessed nuggets at fc6. too convenient, it kills. LOL. ok. time to prepare to run. run run run. ね。。。 私は。。。 ちょっと好きだと思う。 でも、 わからないよ。。。 |
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Monday, May 23, 2011
Im getting a little tired. Since when was I so insecure? Aisyah chided me for playing with fire, For this is what I'll get in return. Can I rewind the days? Cheryl said no. Now what? Sayang asked me not to think too much, If only it was that easy. What I would love to do now, Is to take out my brain, erase all the negative thoughts. :) Ke yi ma? Coach Marcus's "don't worry, I'll make you stronger" Is still stuck in my head. To be honest, I teared a little. When was the last time someone agreed to stand by me and guide me? I can't remember. For how long have I been left all alone on this world? I can't remember too. I want to become stronger.. I really want to.. I'm very confused.. Very very confused now.. Maybe I need to cry a little. Talk to bobo. Haha.. It's a long Tuesday tomorrow.. Bobo, I miss you.. I'm tired. Tired.. |
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Sunday, May 22, 2011
Leon Guok says: SO LONG NEVER TALK LIAO CAN enqi says: means tml.. 1-2. then 3-6. WAD UIMPLYING HA? HA? HA? WAD U IMPLYING Leon Guok says: YOUR LIFE VERY BUSY LEH busier than me amazingy enqi says: LOL. Leon Guok says: one boyfriend one girlfriend enqi says: i so long nv run w u. Leon Guok says: of course busier than me lah enqi says: ......................................................... U FINALLY SAID IT LOL Leon Guok says: kr ikr bound to happen de mah i go find one girlfriend one boyfriend also see i busy anot lor ._> LOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
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Saturday, May 21, 2011
IF ONLY. my life could revolve around, 1. baking 2. softball training and games =D (the baseball game that kareshi-kun downloaded is brainwashing me. LOL) 3. work. ALTERNATE SATURDAYS I DONT CARE. Xp 4. shop!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 5. party. 6. friends. 7. volunteering. 8. frequent and consistent runs. 9. proper healthy home cooked meals! 10. smiles. happiness. simplicity. can or not ah??????????????? ._. |
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he just drifted off to sleep after saying he's hungry. LOL. what is someone like that doing in my life! heh. <3 cute pe. I NV DO ANY WORK TODAY OMG. WILL I FAIL MY RESEARCH PAPERS? LOL. WO BU YAO C GRADE SIAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA. ok tml. I SHALL BE EARLY FOR JAPANESE CLASS AS WELL. ^-^ oh btw, they're so sweet! ^^ i was really smiling as i read through some posts. so cute la!! =3 |
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Wednesday, May 18, 2011
    i like this alot! =D *points up.i want my skin to be so flawless lei.... |
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And as long as you have the passion for it, I'm sure you'll be able to succeed :) inspiring people. ^-^ |
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dont take things at face value. dwell deeper. why the responses so different ah. Is it cause of gender differences? environmental differences? culture? alyah says: hhaah like you said, hes an emo kid insde maybe somethign bthering him? anyway, im a girl. hes a guy he doesnt know what pretty birds ah you get what i mean? and... i think thats how he talks to you? you like something buy lor. enqi says: irritating sia! LOL. alyah says: hahah enqi says: guy and girl. alyah says: thats why girlfriends rock! hahahah im really reeeeeaaaaaaaaaaaally glad i have her. enqi says: anyways. back t topic. LOL i rmb learning abt this in psy.. only in their 40s do men adapt to the more feminine way of thinking, the sensitive and caring attitude alyah says: ?! seriously?? why so slow?? enqi says: yup. before that is the very manly way of thinking LOL alyah says: thats why girls want arry old man? enqi says: MAYBE HOR. alyah says: not only do the have money.. they have that mentality also problem kinda solved! =D women are really more emotional and sensitive creatures. i guess men use their butt to think. wait.... cannot over generalize. most men. im sure some wouldnt. i would love to meet one someday! jyaa~ oyuyamassumi! |
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alyah says: got~ but i dunno why everyting seem so vague.. to me ah haha my soul not here~ ): im showing my emotional side to you.. bu xi huan.. haha i found something.. The best sex is found in the marriage relationship. It is reported that if a couple abstains from sex before marriage, they are 29 to 47 percent more likely to enjoy sex afterward. LOL! reminded me of her telling me, "you look like someone who would have sex before marriage, someone who's okay with one night stands" (Y) win ttm. my reply, enqi says: is that for me. LOL okay yes mum i will abstain from sex before marriage. no worries. HAHA. gosh. dont worry dinah, im mature enough to know that i do not want a kid because of a few seconds of pleasure. =_= jyaa~ out to run~~ |
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 i want this. =( so pretty.  my own bluebird of happiness. <=] i'll find it, someday. |
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happiness is always within reach, but if you push too hard you lose sight of it. the blue bird of happiness. does it exist? or is it just a state of mind? |
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Tuesday, May 17, 2011
 *killed.the only guy who can make me wanna do anything for him. Gomen ne kareshi-kun~!! Xp  tegomassu.massu why u so sexy one. *squishes ur cheeks. |
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Aw.. D= all I can say might most probably be, Since it was your choice, Don't regret anything. Stop dwelling in the past.. It'll only hurt you more.. Who knows the next one might be me. I'll definitely be sad. But I know I have my friends to help me get through. We're all still young~ life isn't only about one person.. Go out there and meet new people! あの人はたぶん、親切な。。。 Too bad we had to meet this way.. |
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Sunday, May 15, 2011
  16/05/2011. 1pm class cancelled, 2-4pm class consultation class, 4-6pm IHP lecture. my life. xoxo. half an hour more t go before i head out, butt's telling me not to move. listening to party rock anthem, wondering why i should confine myself to the cold cold lecture hall later. dark dark sky, grey grey clouds. its gonna rain. I HAVE 3 RESEARCH PAPERS NOT DONE. 1. ED paper- in progress. 2. EAD paper- thurs consult abit first. after thurs its all the way! 3. DIC paper- ... *lost. I'LL MANAGE SOMEHOWXZXZXXZXZXZXZZX ^^ *optimism beam. heh. |
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Thursday, May 12, 2011
 this is nostalgic ttm.1 year ago lei. things have changed so much. we were all forced to grow up, somehow. OKAY. CLASS IS AT 3PM TML. THATS WHY SIM EN QI IS STILL ROAMING AROUND ONLINE, LOOKING LIKE A ZOMBIE INFRONT OF HER LAPPY-CHAN NAO. [[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[ LOL. i happy. okay. time to go into comatose. till i wake up tomorrow~~~!! i shall switch off my phone. i can finally sleeeep properly...... <='] bye. |
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Wednesday, May 11, 2011
training was cool today. ^^ i did fine. i never regret going alone. haa. so much to say, but.. nvm. i feel it all in my heart. why do i have to hide? i did nothing wrong. if this continues.. i'll just do what wilna said. (: enqi you know you trust your own feelings. dont think, just feel~ thinking so much will hurt that poor brain of yours~ |
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Tuesday, May 10, 2011
    okay today abit hiao. eh wad seh this one MY blog wad-.- readers, tahan kay. only today's post will liddat. LOL.  Happy 7th Months dear dear!! ^^okay was still kinda pissed before this, but now im okay already. seriously, people who dont listen to what you're saying, pisses me off. ttm. totally. but but but! nvm. dear made me smile liaoxzxzxxzxzxzzx. so its daijoubu! ^^v tml........ a very long day w/o dear dear. =((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((( sad ttm. vvvvv ttm. emo till i want die already. haha. |
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i dont use words to say anything. if you can feel what im trying to say, that's it. you're the playmate i'll stand by till i die. if you cant, too bad. really. dont force me to say things i dont mean. i dont buy those. if you aint gonna listen to me, why should i listen to you? give and take selfishness theory i call it. i choose what i wanna listen to. my choice. mine. great now 2 of them are at home w me. fuck. i dread coming home. apparently it feels like my room=my home. haha. |
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Monday, May 9, 2011
You're jus creating your own drama out of pure insecurity. High time u quit those nonsense, Stop being so insecure. You're strong! Why let others let u think otherwise?? Flight the fear first, Then fight it even better. |
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met beehian today! okay, she was like reprimanding me for disappearing. D: her first few words, "i thought u didnt care about us anymore!" LOL. did she have to be so direct. gosh. and, "you just disappeared w/o any sound to china!" apparently she was expecting me to mass text. LOL. walau. she's too cute. its making me choke on my tears and guilt. so... it was kinda like a wake up call i guess today. datte! good feeling. ii kimochi. maybe it was because they were gone, thats why i felt kinda weird. well.. it is still my choice right. to decide who i wanna keep in my life and stuffs. its always my choice. my choice. enqi remember it! i will keep the hosehs. i will. ^^ |
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Sunday, May 8, 2011
i have issues. goodnight. hello monday. smile enqi. smile. smile.. tired. |
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Saturday, May 7, 2011
I have eyes to see. I have a heart to follow. I judge. You do too, don't you. Everyone does. Is this world really made up of lies? What happened to the truth? Have we all forgotten the simplicity we once had? If you wanna play, I'll play along too. In fact, way better than you. Try me. I'll never show anyone the weak side of me. Never. I promise. Period. Now time to bounce! Heehee. Smile!!!!!! ~^^ and hide everything. (: |
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      wa piang alvin ur face damn tiko.i jus had to say that. ^^ so these are a series of retarded pictures coming from someone who couldnt concentrate on studying, and someone who suffered because of that inability to concentrate. deep uh. <3 |
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Friday, May 6, 2011
There's a heart that must be free. |
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The point is.. Sometimes u jus gotta realize things urself. Advice from someone else will not be dealt w respect I guess. So I guess the point is, Why revolve ur life around anyone? It's still you that matters the most isn't it. But then again, It's ur choice. Never regret any choice that u urself made. Simple. Smile~~^^ Alvin tan u today damn annoying next time I'll never tell u if I'm having my menses already!!! So I can Starbucks and lepak there freely #likeaboss HA IN UR FACE. Xoxo. Xp |
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Wednesday, May 4, 2011
ne~ maybe things arent so bad after all. wake up to the thought of making someone smile. make your friends smile! (: when youre happy, the people around you will be happy too! i loved today's training. everyone smiled. 皆の笑顔は、とてもかわいいよ！～ i feel motivated to train hard. i should do something about this weak arm of mine. yossssssh. slowly, but surely. lionheart, braveheart. i revisited the importance of smiles today. [= i promise i'll wake up tomorrow with a different outlook. i promise. to myself. time to change. ^-^ |
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Tuesday, May 3, 2011
I swear I have inner issues. Maybe even outer issues. Tired.. Of myself. |
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hi cheryl, i know you love me, and i love you too, more than you love me. heeheeeheee. _|_ la u. HAHAHA. aiya walau this was supposed to be a contemplating about life post. CHERYL YOU HAD TO RUIN MY MOOD. THANKS. HAHA <3 i shall sleep then. |
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Monday, May 2, 2011
long gone are the days when we looked so carefree, our smiles so genuine. this is the growing up phase in life. we lose ourselves. we lose our dreams. we lose our beliefs. we follow blindly. we follow the crowd. we become just another being, simply existing. =\ |
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Enqi: Hello! My blur and super duper hospitable roommate J I really enjoyed the nights together spent with you cos you’re so super funny and react the same unusual way when things go wrong. I still remember the issue about the toilet and being bodyguard and finding out only MUCH MUCH later that the door is automatically locked from the outside once we’ve closed it, thank you so much for being such a kind sweet soul and just looking out and and omg the charger was the worst man, we had 4 failed attempts with the plugs before wilna came and saved our lives but instead of feeling frustrated, we laughed like it was the most amazing thing that wilna did. I think there’s so much blame and “kanjiongness”nowadays that it’s really refreshing to find someone like you who’s always so cheery and laidback yet mature in your thoughts too, and no, I know I’ve said this for many people already, but nope, I don’t say that everyone is mature. Its obvious when someone is acting mature and truly mature. I really appreciated the warm summer breeze you brought to my life, always seeing life through such optimistic yet realistic lens and opening our room to everyone almost every night we weren't in the guest house ahahah! Our door is never close heh really, it's the people who make the place :D I <3 you human train sister! :) -pearlyn i never knew i was this.. perfect. LOL! she made me sound so special. she's a really nice person. reeeeaaaaally. ^^ her character is so happy as well la. heh. okay alot of inner thoughts nao!! often we see ourselves as imperfect individuals, but in another's eyes, we are perfect. |
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Sunday, May 1, 2011
just 2 friends with a common goal. =\ i dont like how it sounds. it sounds so selfish.. =| friends are supposed to share happy times and sad times together. thats what i call a true friend.. yes you're busy, but make time for me.. not now, but maybe some other time? everyone's busy.. its always about you. you you're most important you in the end. we're still not that noble yet to give so easily. use your life to touch another's life. stop being so self-centered.. we came to this world with nothing, and will leave this world, empty handed, just like how we were at the beginning. the time we have on this earth, its the time where we learn valuable life lessons. time to gain. mentally,emotionally,spiritually. but then again.. we were created differently cause we have to learn how to co-exist with one another, to work with one another, to move on together and make this world a better place, hand-in-hand! the endless judgments that irrelevant people give, how far are you going to be affected by it? that's solely up to you isnt it. its your choice. your choice. |
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Camillia Thng Maybe someday i'll be someone's important someone.For now I'll just be my own special someone.=). this is nice! =D |
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 i swear http://mochacafe.info is really inspirational for me. LOL wondering if you're okay.. no matter what happens, im here! please dont forget the smile you've always worn when we're together. if you ever need that smile again, i'll be there to remind you of it. cause that smile was never gone, you just forgot about it! ^^ |
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