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Wednesday, August 31, 2011
the thoughts that were running in my head.. memories. i got goosebumps looking at this. hm. |
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Tuesday, August 30, 2011
My heart always breaks after I bake. Cause I'm reminded of the person I'm still so far from becoming. Reminded of my dream that's still so far away. :/ |
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Monday, August 29, 2011
mochacafe.info i want to learn how to create designs like this!!!!!!!!!! |
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“We seem to be going through a period of nostalgia, and everyone seems to think yesterday was better than today. I don’t think it was, and I would advise you not to wait ten years before admitting today was great. If you’re hung up on nostalgia, pretend today is yesterday and just go out and have one hell of a time.” Art Buchwald (via creatingaquietmind) happythings.tumblr.com so.. i should just act like im still living in year1 sem1? :D LOL. zz these quotes confuse me :( |
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i hvn planned my holiday itenary!!!! AHHHHHH but strange, not really intending to include shopping as one of the to-dos on the list. CAUSE NO $. lol. ~~ |
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Saturday, August 27, 2011
walking home instead of busing.. is nice. im having the habit of walking home whenever i have some unresolved thoughts in my head. a cold breeze was blowing occasionally, my hands were cold. my heart was a little as well. i walked, and walked, and walked. at the first traffic light, i felt lifeless. like i was just existing. at the second traffic light, i felt tears. then i looked up. they went back in. sat at a bench beneath my block. looked up again. prayed. talked to bobo. song on replay since the beginning of the walk ended. home. indifferent is the word for now. care too much, sian. care too little, oso sian. so tough finding a balance. ~ |
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Friday, August 26, 2011
I chose not to sleep in my room because my thoughts run wild after I off the lights. Still a litle not over the fact about choices. If I didn't find out. How long would this have went on for? The thought of it is already plain disgusting and disturbing. Everyone's wearing a mask in this world I suppose. Everyone is. It's only to how much of an extent they are. Yuck. You chose to stop it, But who knows when it'll happen again? Why should I put myself at the risk of such episodes again? So from now on, Do whatever you want. Sure I will smile and be happy, But inside it's no longer the same. I'm certain. Too bad. |
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the fact that you realized you had a choice only now, it makes me.. haha. so if i didnt find out, this might have went on for a loooooooooooooooooooooooooong loooong time. but its okay. me no need any counselling tonight. i can counsel myself. |
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alyah says: heyyyyyy! Massu's says: <- sho happie. alyah says: i saw! i smiled Massu's says: LOL!!!! alyah says: Massu's says: HAHAHAHAHAHA WTFFFFF HAHAHA alyah says: oi Massu's says: i feel warm suddenly. alyah says: i miss you lah! Massu's says: LOL why our convo must start like that one?! HAHA TSK ANNNNAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRR WHEN CAN SEE YOUR FACE AGAIN?! alyah says: one week later..... Massu's says: 2nd sept. ~_~ sho longxz. alyah says: this week very busy one.. Massu's says: prepare for raya right! alyah says: you working with sharon and jolene ah? Massu's says: nope. T_T LOL 10th and 11th i cant make itttt alyah says: 10th.. Massu's says: happy hari raya in advance! alyah says: haha Massu's says: ? damn i cant find the happie picture of us. T_T oh wells..... nvm. so i jus had to put that picture. HAHAHA fking retarded. me likey. |
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maybe only time will feel up that hole. (Seeley, 1992) HAHA. but it might be true.. |
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Thursday, August 25, 2011
It's all right, feel my soul, I want to reach for the skyline and confidently shout, "No way! I'll never say die!" Oh my god, this is just life. Guess it's better to just laugh away, isn't it? The blue wind that blows every now and then, on the last train, I ask myself, do I still have a highway chance? Thank you my teens, you never fail to remind me of what I wanna be. How crazy we all were, what big daydreamers we all were back then. Someday, we will all pick up enough courage to say, this is what I want, and we will go confidently in that direction! On our different crossroads now, I will remember you. Can you spot the different yui songs mentioned? Haha. Sudden inspiration. Wonder if yui's songs hold a hidden meaning. Manda's msg ytd really made me tear. 01.. Is really a very nice class. In fact I think everyone in dadp is so huggable. :') Smile even if it makes ur eyes small enqi. I'll let you squeeze any amount of chilli on my hair and body. HAHA. <3 cry or smile, a day still passes. :)))) |
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fuck them & be single. hey leon, maybe your prediction of 5 months was right. :) i want the old me back. i want to go back to the past. you can do your best in keeping her sane, i can keep myself sane. pure stupidity. i am confident enough to say that i was happier in the past. i want to turn back time. during the time when you were not in my life. i know this would be very hurting, but i'll still stick to what massu has taught me, live your feelings honestly. like it or not, i'll just be honest where such matters are concerned. if i am going to continue feeling so distraught, i suggest we end this before i start on year 3. seriously. i've had enough. will i be happier alone? you ask. i am at least 65% confident that i will. sorry to say this. Cherylganjx SHERAL :B says: sigh, its tough for a guy to understand a girl's insecurities just so you know. |
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Wednesday, August 24, 2011
maybe i was happier in the past, because i did not have anyone to complain to. i learnt how to face my own troubles myself, everything by myself. i grew up by myself. i get depressed whenever i think of trainings during the holidays. dinah wont be with me. for approximately 1 whole month. thou i have a module to take during the hols as well, so wont be appearing for trgs, lol, but yay. alvin mentioned i can hang out w the other girls after trainings, but.. sayang. i know it wont feel right. he says my life doesnt revolve around you, i agree. but it revolves partly around you. haha. guys will never understand the bond girlfriends share, dont they. |
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Tuesday, August 23, 2011
 elim had a dreamcatcher on her bag today!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
@_@ very naise!!!!!!!!!!!! i realized im a sucker for such myths. like bluebird signifying happiness, dreamcatcher supposedly catching bad dreams so you wouldnt have nightmares ~ if i ever chance upon one.. (: |
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Monday, August 22, 2011
HAPPY BIRTHDAY KIM KU TAN
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 sexy not sexy not? HAHA
 hie brother!
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 誕生日おめでとう！
 staff at Bon Gout managed to get a treat from me too~!!
 please dont forget how i screamed when u said u wanna eat the whole cupcakecause there's a surprise inside it. ^_^
 ocha~
 Lunch Buffet @ Momiji was cheeeeeeeeap & niccccccccceeeeeeeeee~!!!!!!!! (Y) (Y)
 this is cute. >_<
 caption: シャブシャブ！この店の美味しい食べ物です！shabu shabu! kono mise no oishii tabemono desu!
shabu shabu! this shop's yummy food!
anyone looking for shabu shabu model??? potential one here. HAHAHAHA!!!!!!
gay ttm this pict (Y)
 last picture to own this post.see that guy digging his mouth cause food stuck.
HA!
Today!
I thought Momiji was still at Dhoby, so we met at dhoby.
but apparently after we reached, we realized it had shifted.
I remembered the address being City Square Mall.
But only realized City Square Mall does not = to Dhoby.
HAHA
we cabbed from pomo square to city square. $5.
naise.
i paid.
but from liang court to bon gout's cab fare, alvin tan paid. $10.
NAISE. (Y)
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA
retarded day.
oh wells.
hope i managed to bring enough laughter into his life for today. ^^
jyaa, oyasumi~!! |
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Saturday, August 20, 2011
 alvin tan this reminds me of us!
but why did it make me sad.. "us". it's a very scary word. |
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 happythings.tumblr.com is so effing awesome!
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Friday, August 19, 2011
I feel insecure. #facingmyfears |
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Will I become that person someday.? Why am I so insecure? Alyah sensei, tasukete kudasai D: I don't like this feeling. It's weird.. It's not me. Not me. I just wanna be happy in my own world. Is it that tough? |
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Thursday, August 18, 2011
i have an issue with myself. weight issue. image issue. i dont want my classmates to do a drama intervention workshop for me! kns. lol! i just need my exercise. im using exercise to run away from my problems? whatever. i just need it. exercise obssession perhaps? fk. sorry, im fat. haha. something is gonna go terribly wrong.. i can feel it. |
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Wednesday, August 17, 2011
does this girl look like me? |
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Tuesday, August 16, 2011
will things really get better if i just hold your hand? can nothing really come between us if i just hold your hand? will your promise to do all that you can really be true if i just hold your hand? sayang i am still afraid to trust. when will this ever end -.- why cant i just trust. dont think, feel? fking hell. so annoying. bah. nebermind. back to my own world. |
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Monday, August 15, 2011
i dont know why this came to my mind, alvin tan, someday your parents will be proud of you for doing good in softball too! ^_^ -dearphotograph.com that picture made me go awwww! strange isnt it, why do i like softball so much? |
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alyah says: what happen to alvin? what to alvin and enqi? what will happen to us. |
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alyah says: but hor... if you see it tht way.. then what about alvin's point of view? that girl happy, alvin not happy. whatever it is right.. its still, one person will lose out. thats life. you cant satisfy everyone anyway i feel guilty for being happy. wa. my mind. my poor brain. i can hear her screaming. |
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Sayang.. ._. I don't feel good. Aisyah.............. Artika.................... :( I don't like this feeling. I feel like just crying myself to sleep tonight.. I don't like this....... This is karma.. I can't keep up w the happy me anymore :( How can I be happy when I have issues botherin me? Someone tell me. |
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Sunday, August 14, 2011
14082011 HAPPIE 5TH MONTH ASSHOLE. Dear Tan Darling, one more month & it's 0.5 years oreadiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii~! Thank you for being such an asshole, but at times such a good guide for me, & you have no idea how grateful i am for you oways tolerating my nonsense. LOL. TIO BOH? TIO BOH? XP okay menses cramp. shall stop typing. typing uses alot of energy! |
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Friday, August 12, 2011
With you around, I realize I dare to be who I wanna be. @AisyahSeeley @AlyahDinah @Nivlala @cherylganjx @iamTIKAlove @kikizui. ^^ These are people I am so grateful for having in my poly life. <3 |
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Tuesday, August 9, 2011
if only my face chioer w/o fringe. cfm i everyday go out liddat sia! lollolololol! then i will have 10000000000000000000000000000000 hairbands. and rubberbands. hehehehhehehehehehehe. but too bad enqi, ur face so ugly. hahahaha! just only stars~ just only stars blinking~ |
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Monday, August 8, 2011
Returning home to an empty house. Times like this, I really hoped I had a doggie. At least when I open the door, Someone will be there. I remember you waiting by the door. I remember your bark of happiness! I remember you. ._. Sigh. |
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Sunday, August 7, 2011
I AM SO BITCHY ON A SUNDAY. LOL. love it when class on Monday starts at 1pm! TEEHEE. <33333333333333333333333333333333333333333 i got alot of things to do......... but. oh wells. tml then stress la! today ish a Sunday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *shakes pom pom. OH. I BOUGHT A BOOK. Mitch Albom's Have a little faith! eggcited. ^_^ |
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Friday, August 5, 2011
 okay. so iep was a little scary due to the lecturer's pmsy moody. but.. at least during our slides her mood wasn't that jialat. so i guess all is well? blah. at least it's over. took the bus home after presentation. saw nash!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! took the same bus as well ^^ Xp duno why was I so excited to see him. We talked a little, about haikal, masaki.. yeah. it's nice to always see an old friend. =]! And as always, he's v irritating. hehehehe <3 he said he'll slap my face and wake me up before he alighted =_= LOL. which of course he didn't. fasting month mah. =P |
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Thursday, August 4, 2011
I OVERSLEPT AGAIN! FARK. T_T enqi u better stop this. later more warning letters sia. DX but im so tired......... |
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aisyah i feel like looking at her blog. im on rehab. must resist. |
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Wednesday, August 3, 2011
-.- i wanted t blog. but i ttly forgot about it. the window was open for so long. -.- alot of thoughts went through my head for the past few hours. |
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Tuesday, August 2, 2011
"Does it look big because it is far away?" "No, it's the other way round." i like how that sounds. AKU TAK NAK PERGI BODOH AGM TML LA SIAL! that must have sounded super minahish. \m/ bloody fugger. TEEHEE. |
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