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Thursday, September 30, 2010
im wondering.. why am i working so hard for? for the money? but why do i even need the extra income? im not exactly in debt or something.. okay yes. need to start preparing to pay mother for poly school fees after 3 years le. LOL. but then again. yeah.. will i be spending my adulthood in days like this too? and whem im old, will i be looking back, saying, why was this how i spent my youth? from another perspective, moeny might probably be the most reasonable thing to work hard for. it's the only thing that lets you have a clear view of this world. the only thing. love? seriously, im beginning to think that's secondary, sadly. you see when there's love, all the money issues start coming in too. 1. wanting to live together UNDER ONE ROOF. 2. a BABY. 3. HOUSING, LIVING expenses. all these, the flower bud of love. oh welllssss? |
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Wednesday, September 29, 2010
the fear of aging reflects life that haven't found meaning. am i leading the life that i want to lead? am i the person that i want to be? if we accept the fact that we can die at anytime would we lead our lives differently? forgive everybody, everything, now! don't wait! not everybody has the time.. -tuesdays with morrie. are you at peace with yourself? |
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 i hope this will be a sequel to the dream i had this morning.\m/ most awesome tegomass dream evaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. 今日のなんしきやきゅう(軟式野球-softball)はとても楽しいだよ！ ありがとうね、ヂナちゃん～ あたしは死んでも守るよ！ i saw leon, rima,lishan,beehian today during training. i am happy. ah, thanks to dinah too. ^^ (#) |
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Tuesday, September 28, 2010
 i did this earlier this noon. this was wad massu said to goro-chan during their last baseball game... when they were losing..  :( |
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Monday, September 27, 2010
1. a family left a grandmother on a wheelchair someone near the road, i found a handcuff, apparently the family had been abusing and neglecting her, i screamed a them demanding an explanation. 2. i was on a bus, bus was hijacked, i saved the day. (working w someone from the policeforce from a walkie talkie.) so heroic. LOL. ah, look wad i found on google! Dreaming that you are a hero is symbolic of your innate strength and outstanding willingness to help others in times of adversities. You possess great courage and would fearlessly go about living life. To you, challenges are not seen as something that hinders you from success. Instead, it is overcoming them is where you find a sense of accomplishment. To see yourself as a hero in your dream alludes of hidden great potential in you that is waiting to be unmasked. You probably don’t know it yet so this may be a reason you are envisioning yourself as a hero in your dream. In the end, you will realize that there is something special about you when this potential is revealed. wow..... although i know google can't be trusted, but im still happy. LOL! my bed's really comfy for the past 2 days.. i likey the feeling... X]] |
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i hate cockroaches. fuck. |
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 massu-chan no kaban ha.. familiar desu. LOL deuter kana. i love this picture.  they're really close friends.. :]i wanna go on an adventure like this too. ^^ with someone close. i approve. ^_^ |
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Sunday, September 26, 2010
 i wanna go backpacking with the massu in the picture.^^ |
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明日の朝は泳ぎに行きます！ 泳いでから、帰っています。 それから、 昼ごはんを食べる！ そして～ 仕事場に行く！ じゃあ～ も頑張ったよ！ 昨日はねませんでした。。。 だめですよ。。。 だから、 今はとても眠い。。。 日本語の勉強をしますかな。。。 はい。 じゃあ！！！！！！！ 笑って！笑って！もっと！もっと！ |
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 if only i was the one beside.. [ LOL this wasnt googled by me fyi. was by atashi no okaasan yo. ~_~   AHAHAHAAHAH so chioooooo i like the plaits thingy. LOL!!!!!!!!!! |
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Saturday, September 25, 2010
止まることのない時間の中走り続ける! in what way is this sad? LOL. to stop as a matter of fact is impossible, within this time keep running to keep up! |
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Friday, September 24, 2010
NIVLA says: yeah i also think so night night then! XDDD Hahaha エンチ 私はあなたのユちゃんです！ says: ! NIVLA says: happy lao sai-ing ltr HAHAHA XDDDDDD エンチ 私はあなたのユちゃんです！ says: ...................... NIVLA says: NIGHTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT エンチ 私はあなたのユちゃんです！ says: fker. LOL NIVLA says: sweet drm of massu shitting LOLLL エンチ 私はあなたのユちゃんです！ says: JUST GO LA OMG STOP SPAMMING LOL NIVLA says: i had to say that wahhahaha エンチ 私はあなたのユちゃんです！ says: ...... GO NIVLA says: night night dont angry arh XDDDDDD エンチ 私はあなたのユちゃんです！ says: LOL NIVLA says: dont chase me away エンチ 私はあなたのユちゃんです！ says: GO!!!! OMG! NIVLA says: hahahhaha エンチ 私はあなたのユちゃんです！ says: GO! LOL NIVLA says: SHIT SHIT SHIT!!!! dont laugh at ur com エンチ 私はあなたのユちゃんです！ says: FKER OMG.. NIVLA says: its retarted!!!1 エンチ 私はあなたのユちゃんです！ says: ... OMG.. U DAMN ANNOYING!! NIVLA says: hahhahaha エンチ 私はあなたのユちゃんです！ says: LOL!! .. NIVLA says: tis is like the final spam of energy be4 u die エンチ 私はあなたのユちゃんです！ says: HAHAHA!!! NIVLA says: after that u are totally wasted エンチ 私はあなたのユちゃんです！ says: OMG LOL WTF!! OMG.. U.. NIVLA says: reallyyy エンチ 私はあなたのユちゃんです！ says: LOL!!!! NIVLA says: okay thats all X.X now really NIGHTTT!!!! エンチ 私はあなたのユちゃんです！ says: THAT WAS RANDOM!!!!!! LOL NIVLA says: HAHAHHA エンチ 私はあなたのユちゃんです！ says: BYE LA! LOL!!!! NIVLA says: dont go crazy and stop laught XDD エンチ 私はあなたのユちゃんです！ says: ... NIVLA winks: Play "Water Balloon" エンチ 私はあなたのユちゃんです！ says: STOP ASKING ME TO STOP LAUGHING .. OMG GO!!!!! .. NIVLA says: hahahah OKOKOK REALLY NOW night i jus had to post this up. HOW CAN A MSN CONVO GET SO RANDOM?!?!?!?!!? HAHA!!!!!!!!!!! |
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i love the place. amazingly, im blending in rather well. =D maybe cause ive had experience in the F&B industry before. what makes me like it way better than those sales jobs.. might be cause of the fact that its a service that im providing, not wanting to get something out of them. well, of course its their money the restaurant's aiming for.. but, on my part, its only providing them my service! ^^ its nice when they return my smile. haa~ makes my job all very the worth it. its tiring, of course. but.. lovely colleagues are a bonus there. (: boss: thank you for helping uh!! me: uh, okay!!! ... but. wait. she's paying me! LOL! see? this is what i call nice. some bosses.. expect you to do triple the work when all they're giving u is a pathetic sum of money. its really the attitude and the environment in the F&B industry ne.. although my pay's only $5/hour (yes yes yes, its soooooooo little blah blah), but. at least, im happy. where to get colleagues who'll keep asking you, "Are you alright?^^" smiling somemore lei. of course u'll reply, alright:S! LOL!!! well! i guess putting myself in such environments.. might really be beneficial for me in the future! if i really wanna open a cafe. KYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!~ ^_^ |
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Thursday, September 23, 2010
私の頭が本当とても痛いです！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！ うわー！～ |
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uwaa.. yabai. :( i dont want to fall sick. omg. enqi u cannot fall sick. cannot. !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
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    i think the massu would be like that in real life when he faces a girl he likes!!!!omg so gong gong. XD Massu:死んでも守る！(HE SAID THIS TO KANAMEN!!! D: *JEALOUS) |
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Wednesday, September 22, 2010
start w mastering the foundations, then slowly advance up. inject creativeness in it! =D |
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 beehian's "NO MONEY NO TALK".. she's the one, making me realize how realistic everything is, and i seriously appreciate that. i agree though. $. demo daijoubu ne!!!! i'll work hard!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ^^ i wanna have a place where the ones i love, and the ones my friends love, can just take a breather in a space they can call their own. jya, i shall go dream out my thoughts on a piece of paper naooooo!!! ^^ and. nothing good happened. zz i dont like this feeling. i'll become stronger. dont doubt our potential.. we'll definitely prove you wrong. we will. i believe. |
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Tuesday, September 21, 2010
 for massu. LOL    my day today! work was alright, everyone's quite friendly. names i remember, Jean, Sam, Aunty Mary, JJ, Wei Xiang. oh.. my right eye kept twitching. from work till now. i hope something good's gonna happen soon =D \m/ ^_^ oh, i ran from my house to pristine dental just now. and made it back, alive. im amazed at my own ability. "suddenly remembers the appt at 930" "intended to go running at 9" "decided to run there." im still as reckless as evaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. but that's me. i wanna do that, so i went ahead. :) |
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Monday, September 20, 2010
maybe im not that strong after all.. laughing cowards pretending to be strong. we all are, i guess, in a certain way? oh god. im feeling the same feeling again.. lost. kaname-san found what she wanted to do, that's why she's working hard. she knows what she wants. and she has awesome friends who have the same passion.. together they will descend the river and come back stronger. sometimes, its really lonely fighting alone. can i really, really, count on someone to be there? hm. what is my dream currently? like what carlos-san said, "my dream now in high school is over.. but i have other dreams that currently i myself cannot see too.." so what is my dream, now? my dream when im in poly.. can time really tell? i really dont know if still have the confidence anymore.. is this just a teenager unhappy because she didnt have a try at her dream? or is that really what she wants ultimately. i really dont like leaving things up to time.. since i dont know, one thing i know for sure, is that i wanna do my best in softball. im sure my triplets all agree on this. its because of the two little ones.. that i still wanna protect something that i told myself i will never give up. it shall become the only thing that i have. to fight on to becoming a vet.. that shall become a dream that i myself can't see currently. now, do my best for everything that i play a part in!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yes. :) im done. thank you Bobo for being there to listen. imy. i shall become stronger and not cry so easily. dont cry dont cry. smile smile. ^^!!!!!!!! a little note to self: 今から、泣かないね！ in anything that you're involved in, just do your best!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! passion wise, you'll find it at the end of 3 years. im sure. work hard from now on! ^^ one step at a time. homeostasis. XD knowing what i want would definitely aid in making better choices.. but over the next 2 years, who can promise that there wouldnt be any changes? i cant, because i myself dont even know what im really heading for. :) focus on the more easier attainable dreams first.. |
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 awesomeness. teehee.i just went to collect my work uniform! ^^ hope everything goes well from now.. これからは元気で安産かな～ でもね！ 私はずっと頑張りますよ！ 一緒に頑張った！＾＾ i shall sleep early today and wake up early to go bask in the early sun tomorrow. =D |
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Sunday, September 19, 2010
  if only i can get this close.. LOLLdont worry massu-chan, i'll definitely notice if u cut ur hair! ^^ im srsly crying after every episode of dance drill. ... my eyes feel sore nao. grr. |
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my dream now.. i have dreams that i cant see too.. what matters now is the present. supporting and encouraging people.. it can be really tough. having someone standing by you, knowing that they'll be there to just listen, is really a gift from heaven. having someone believing in you, that's important as well.. telling you, "you can do it! give it your all!" giving someone else that unexplainable courage to fight on.. -dance drill. i know i'll be learning alot of new things after this holiday's over. :) |
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 WASEDA SHIBUYA SENIOR HIGH SCHOOL ANNUAL FESTIVAL! ^^ now this is what i call INTERNATIONAL LOVE. LOL! ah! Massu-chan's in the picture too =D SHIBUYAAAAAAAAAAA the uniforms which we never got a chance to try.. :( GRR. NEXT YEAR. SAA! IKUZO! ^^ Sharlyn, Jie Ying, En Qi: ITADAKIMASU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LOL Jie Ying and her tegoshi fan-friend from japan. :( *jealous. Sharlyn with her Arashi fan-friendS from japan. :( *jealous again. \m/ the 3 gin na who wants to marry someone japanese. HAHA!!!! Tegoshi, Aiba, Masuda. YAY Sharlyn & Jy. SAA! im done w the festival! loved the haunted house the most, and the maru maru maze.. duno wads that. LOL. but, every station we went to, we made alot of noise w our screaming. HAHA!!! "Tegomasu? O_O" "AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!" "ARASHI! ARASHI!!!!!!!!" "AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!" *sharlyn takes out her jumbo uchiwas. "AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" HAHAHAHAAHAHAHAAHAHAAHA AWESOME. love the students there. awesomely cute. so friendly too. Jyaaaaa!!!! 来年は、待ったね！ |
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Saturday, September 18, 2010
i'll buy LIVE's tee and hair tie. set desu. less than 100. yes. YAY WASEDA HIGH! |
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Friday, September 17, 2010
    im sorry. |
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  i likey pictures like these. ^^ ne ne, massu-chan.. u played Be Funky! for 5 times already.. |
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im in the dance drill mood. =D *shakes pom pom. Cheer Spirit. (Y) YOSHHHHHHAAA! |
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Thursday, September 16, 2010
dreams. dont lose before even fighting. believe. protect what you think is important, guard it with your life. do waht you wanna do, dont regret! dance drill. ii na. |
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i dont like being used. i dont like being looked down. nobody does. mind your words before you speak. doesn't mean that im smiling, things are okay. so sometimes, you just stfu. im only human, everyone is. okay. back to watching dance drill. |
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Wednesday, September 15, 2010
 okay.. so this was wad happened just now.me: *opens door of fridge. *stares at boxes of sushi. *sees two boxes of salmon sushis. KYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!~ *holds face in happiness. *ITADAKIMASU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *CLAPS now i wanna go lao sai alr. ~_~ no good to eat raw food on an empty stomach. zzzzzzzz |
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 これからは元気で安産！-Aikawa Kaname-san ♥ dance drillのspirit!!!!! i know my future is important, but isnt doing what i really like, doing what i really wanna do now, more important? rather than regretting on things that ive never done, give it your best shot now! i dont ever wanna look back and feel regretful.. nevertheless, i should never be too stubborn. remember ne. i should learn from kaname-san. (Y) i approve. NEXT EPISODE OF DANCE DRILL'S GONNA BE INTERESTING, HAHA I SAW MASSU IN SOME WEIRD COSTUME AND JUMPING AROUND. XD ♥ when i find what i wanna do, i'll do it. |
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Tuesday, September 14, 2010
 that i dont waste my beloved, valuable holiday away. T_Talright! this shall be a post of what i wanna do this holiday! ^^ 一番: learn how to bake bread! (LOL BAKE BUNSSS!\m/) (Y) jio-ed leon(yes,him.HAHAAA!!!!!) to go for the demo session le.HAHA! not bad not bad. lucky got friend living near me!! [[[ HAHA 二番: my 日本語................................................. D:< from 下手 change to 上手!!!!!!!! >:D 三番: my guitar..................................................................... hm. CHERYL GAN JX U MUST BE MY TEACHER. :( 四番: WORK EVERYDAY. HAHAHAHAHA!!!! (eh srsly i dont mind. XP) EARN $$$$$$~~ cause i want to... aiya. skip something. HAHA!!!!! no la. ~_~ 五番: RUN RUN RUN EXERCISE EXCERCISE. NIKE 10KM RACE I DONT WANT DIE I WANT AT LEAST JOG ALL THE WAY LOL 六番: GO OUT W JIEYING (CASH STUDIOS,HOKKAIDO SWEETS BUFFET,NEOPRINTS (Y)!) we're like meeting once every holiday. HAHAHAHA OMG LIKE LOVERS LIDDAT WTH 七番: BUY A POLAROID LOL :X this has to wait till after i get my pay.......... this one can slowly. kekex. 八番: SHOP ONLINE, SHOP LOCAL, WHATEVER again, $$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$ firstttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt D: 九番: cca. have fun. ... .. .. ...... T.T GOT COMPETITION. ZZZZZ OMG ENQI DONT U GET BORED W SOFTBALL.......... DAMN U. 十番: BE HAPPY. =D SMILE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ^^ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ UPCOMING EVENTS.
今週は: 明日はアイシャちゃんのうちへ行きます！ あさっては九時に学校へ行きます！(10am, briefing.... shangri-la cip overseas.) 日曜日の日本語の授業は土曜日になります！ 日曜日にジエインちゃんと一緒にWASEDA SENIORの学校へいきます！ 来週は: 月曜日で仕事日が始まります！ that's about all for now. tummy growling. ~_~ OMG AND! GOT TO FINSH WATCHING DANCE DRILL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
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  this is the reason why i love facebook and fan communities. [[[さあ！行くぞ！off to order LIVE album~~ have to save more money already for the concert goods. but concert goods can wait. =D LIVE album cannot wait. XD |
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