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Monday, August 30, 2010
will it help if i visualize myself pregnant? while studying the conception chapter in lifespan psychology. o_o maybe it will help. alright. i shall do just that! ^_^ 今日は十時にうちを出ます。 学校へ行きました。 学校からうちまで四十ぷんぐらいかかりました。 十二時にうちへ帰っていました。 それから、 心理学の勉強をしました～ そして、 私は七時に晩ご飯を食べました～ 晩ご飯の食べ物はおいしいでした！ ありがとうでした！ じゃあ！ おやすみなさい！ yay second post in jap. hopefully structures are correct. i fall asleep to dream of you.. -A Song For You, Stephanie |
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Friday, August 27, 2010
 the little voice in my head, telling me it's okay to push on, knowing i'll have someone to fall back on. i dont say it, you dont say it. we just know. 大好きだよ。^-^ i'll definitely make it there. you will too. cause you're my sisterrrrrr. 覚えてくださいね！(please remember it!) I'LL WORK HARD! 僕たちの空。YOSH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! >:D この前の気持ちは覚えてくださいよ！ when you're down and out, please let me be the first person you remember. :] |
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i dont like feeling so useless. i dont like feeling so useless. i dont like feeling so useless. i dont like feeling so useless. i dont like feeling so useless. i dont like feeling so useless. i dont like feeling so useless. i dont like feeling so useless. i dont like feeling so useless. i dont like feeling so useless. i dont like feeling so useless. i dont like feeling so useless. i dont like feeling so useless. i dont like feeling so useless. =[ if i ever need someone to come along, who's gonna comfort me, and keep me strong? |
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Thursday, August 26, 2010
is it time to grow up? stuck between thinking like a kid or an adult. what's the meaning behind being an adult? maturity............ i guess its about realizing different things............ i can still be the way i am. :] |
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Tuesday, August 24, 2010
   yesterday's run @ the parkk. :)! i looked up, and saw these fluffy beings!!!!!!!!! ^_^ while listening to shamrock by uverworld, i saw the 2nd picture. (Y) awesome. run run run. run till you reach there. your dream. (finally im done dealing with 2010's beetle-san's visit into my room, yokatta......... ~_~) |
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Monday, August 23, 2010
  remember,happiness can be really simple. just keep smiling! just keep smiling!!
OH ANYWAY LEON GUOK URE SCARY DONT EVER COPY AND PASTE WAD I WROTE HERE IN OUR MSN CONVOS, EVER, AGAIN. LOL |
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Sunday, August 22, 2010
私は今悲しいです。。 どうして？ ；（ じゃあ！ 今寝ています。 おやすみなさい。 増田さん、大好きだよ。 きゃあ。 |
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Saturday, August 21, 2010
 i hope everyone finds a bestfriend they can rely on.^_^ i love my room now.. so peaceful. haha. |
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Friday, August 20, 2010
totally speechless. i really hope the movie comes to singapore..
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Enjoy life. There's plenty of time to be dead. |
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Thursday, August 19, 2010
VENUS LIM U NBK. PURPOSELY SHOW ME VID TO MAKE ME CRY............................. DAMN UUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU :@ now my eye swollen. nb.... tml wake up cfm swollen. grrrrrrrrrrrr. will the day come when i no longer cry whenever i see shows related to you? どうかな？ as long as i feel the seperation and unspoken love, i guess i still will. i miss you bobo. :'[ and venus lim you'll get it from me when i see u again. GRR. NIVLA says: okayyyy com'on let me see that spastic smile of yours! smile whats the use of cryinggg ANW im off to bed now and u shld too kay? NIGHT NIGHT okayy slp crying bt pls wake up smilingg kay? NIGHTTT sweetdrms! another cute msn convo. i approve. |
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Wednesday, August 18, 2010
i miss bobo. |
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 things are really reeeeeaaaalllly simple. believe............. dreams..................... confidence..................................... change. yossh. |
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Tuesday, August 17, 2010
I WISH FOR HAPPY WEATHER TOMORROW MORNING. FOR THE WHOLE DAY LA. MAKE ME HAPPY. geeh. |
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Leon says: WE SOAR WHEN TH TIME IS RIGHT CAUSE WE ARE LEOS エンチ says: that kind of thinking.. エンチ says: is called.. Leon says: called? エンチ says: PROCRASTINATING Leon says: LOLOLOL took you long enough to notice but we can memorise things easily エンチ says: .. Leon says: cause WE ARE LEOS hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm. |
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Monday, August 16, 2010
Leon says: i know everyone likes different things so you must learn to love yourself to trust yourself' and disregard whatever people say about you do whatever makes you happy ♥ |
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 before i conk out and fall asleep,this picture.. i cant believe i can feel so much for it. my thoughts when i saw this pict: me after poly, fufilling my dreams, thinking about my 20 years of living.. after graduating.......... it's nice when someone's there to listen.. i know everyone has their fair share of troubles.. that's why when you find someone willing to just stop and listen, treasure the person. i believe i have found the person.. :] my backpacking buddy. thank you, (whoever's above) for blessing me with her. ずっと運命です! 3 years.. of working towards the same goal. together with 3 other treasures i've found, i believe i will able to achieve greater things. 本当にありがとうよ! ^_^ what else can i say, other than thank you? =] the different people you meet.. leaves you with something new learnt. if you understand what im feeling now, most likely we would be able to click real well. [ don't judge me.. you might know my story, but you have never felt what i was going through. not one bit. everyone has a story. 覚えてください。 different scenes, different emotions, different stories. still the same old me. ^_^ |
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Sunday, August 15, 2010
  i hope after this 3 weeks of supposedly, holiday,i understand something new. im confident Dance Drill will do the job thou. X] 俺から、 (sorekara = and after that,) 四週間の休み！ (yonshuukan no yasumi = 4 week's break) うれしいよね！^^ 時々は。。。 (tokidoki wa...) (sometimes..) |
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tore my first pair of contacts, cut my own finger, cut my own finger against my file, dance drill episode 2 not loading, pimples coming out. omg. bad holiday. ~_~ ENQI YOU MUST MASTER JAP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! D: |
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Friday, August 13, 2010
待った来週の金曜日で十時間からよね~ I FINALLY CAUGHT UP WITH MASSU-SAN! ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ じゃあ! 金曜日の毎晩でごご十時間から,増田さん待ったね! MASTERHITS~~~~~~~ (i totally KYAAAAAAAAAAAA-ED damn loud when i heard the familiar cue before MASTERHITS started. XD) half an hour with Massu, LIVE from Japan.... what more to ask for? XD something only love can do, i call this. X]]]]]]]]]]]]]] <-xin fu face. AND ENQI WILL WORK HARD ON HER JAP , JUST FOR YOU! YOU YOU YOU! ;D Episode1 of Dance Drill (Y) Suzuki Carlos Saburouta-kun~ HAHAHAHAHA! fight! go! jinguuji! fight! go! satsu high! XD the way massu followed the cheer was damnnnnnn cute. XDDDD HAHA episode 1 already got so many of his cute moments.... ;]]]]]] can see where the show is heading already~ DREAMS. HIGH SCHOOL KIDS. aw. i think i will learn something new after im done with this series. uh huh! kaname-chan suddenly running off from the administration into university, suddenly deciding on wanting to become a cheerleader..... her half-heartedness........ the final dream.......... (im getting goosebumps already. this all sounds so.. familiar. LOL material i can relate toooooo~) ganbaru yo ne~ |
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  these are what i shall be entertained with for this holiday. ^_^ YAY. Masterhits! + Dance Drill. YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY ! |
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Tuesday, August 10, 2010
had an awesome time yesterday on msn. LOL. the appearance of the Leon(s)!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (Y) i approve. damn it was super easy for Leon to imitate my way of talking.. Z_z so yeah! my legs are hurting from the 21 laps i swam yesterday afternoon, it was soooo hot. water was warm too. =_= almost died in the pool. ahahahaaaaaa okay. do proposal now. maybe he's right. maybe she's right too. i need a break. i know them too well. humans.. get tired easily of old things.. yah, i agree. just a break. a short one will do. xiu xi shi wei le zou geng chang yuan de lu................ 1. need to study lifespan 2. need to study japanese language 3. need to study psychology 4. need to clear up my room 5. need to think...... |
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Monday, August 9, 2010
finally got my holga 135bc. mr 135. i shall name it. =D better days to come, till i figure out how to use it. =_= hmm maybe i should get a polaroid uh.... $100 nia... LOL. omg. no. no! i cant think like that.... save enqi. a holga is enough. a holga is ur best buddy.... till you figure out how to use it. =_= SIGH! something only love can do. (damn that fanfic is still stuck in my head! when will it ever get out?!?!!??!!) |
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  currently grabbing awesome quotes and pictures in tumblr's quote book. haa. my pace no lifestyle... my life is a sum of all the choices i have made. true. sorry, i think i need a break. |
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Sunday, August 8, 2010
i never want to be that person who makes anyone cry. |
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FAMILY PORTRAIT. damn.. that fanfic is still stuck in my head.. accompanied with katrina-san's Only Love by Trademark fanvid of it..... ~~~ but seriously. what makes a happy family. reading Family Portrait.. weirdly, makes me reflect on my own family. "Doing what makes me happy.." Happiness. Family members are supposed to be there for you. Not raking up the past and harping on your mistakes. That isnt right.. Everyone is supposed to be understanding.. When I dont wanna talk, dont bother me. Dont get on my nerves.. I wanted us to talk in the past, but you didnt want too. Now, Im just acting in the way you did. I dont wanna talk now. And here you come, reprimanding me on how much time i spent online instead of TALKING with you. wtf? reflect on what you did first. In the past, you said you dont wanna talk because ure tired, you dont have time. Well, now i dont have time too. Dont realize the importance of this only when you've lost it. Treasuring it only when you've lost it? Too late. Stupid. Trust...... |
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Saturday, August 7, 2010
 something only love can do. OTANJOUBI OMEDETOU MEI-CHAN~ |
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Thursday, August 5, 2010
 “ Wait for the person who pursues you, the one who will make an ordinary moment seem magical, the kind of person who brings out the best in you and makes you want to be a better person. Wait for the person who will be your best friend, the only person who will drop everything to be with you at any time no matter what the circumstances, for the person who makes you smile like no one else and when they smile you know they need you. Wait for the person who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweat and a t-shirt, but appreciates it when you get dressed up for them. And most of all wait for the person who will put you at the center of their universe, because that’s where you belong. ” ♥♥♥ |
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haha! this weeeek is coming to an end. yokatta ne~ and i thought i'll never make it through. :( SO! okay. now, my mind is really tired, my eyes are closing, but i still wanna watch desperate housewives. zzzzz that's all im thinking of. so ya. tml. JOM PARTAY! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA i shall bring my camera tml............................................ |
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Wednesday, August 4, 2010
suffering from immunosupression. all this because of stress. STRESS. __ suppression of the immune response = diminished effectiveness of the immune system. when the stress repsonse is activated, the body's resources are less available for the immune system. yes, i sure hope i wont collapse, and suddenly get a panic attack later. Maladaptive behavior behavior is abnormal only when it interferes w an individual's ability to function normally in his personal life or in society. I think I'm suffering from this now. Conversion disorder (Somatoform disorders) emotional distress changed into real physical symptoms. -nausea, headaches. Maybe those that never study might ungergo Mass Hysteria? A group of people develop similar fears, delusions or physical symptoms. ALL THESE ABOVE ARE ANXIETY DISORDERS. now for MOOD DISORDERS. come to think about it.. there was a time when i really felt like that! Major Depressive Disorder. being in a bad mood for at least 2 weeks, having no interest in anything. ANYTHING. getting no pleasure in activities. sigh. OH! need to think about suicide, feeling guilty, worthless, problem with thinking, sleeping, eating, making decisions. OKAY MAYBE I WASNT REALLY SUFFERING FROM THAT DISORDER ABOVE. -.- lol. HMM. MAYBE THE ONE BELOW? Bipolar Disorder. fluctuations between episodes of mania and depression. manic episodes lasts for a week. individual is unusually cheerful and high, has high self-esteem, displays little need for sleep, pursues pleasurable activities, has racing thoughts, easily distracted, speaks rapidly & frequently. MOVING ON TO PERSONALITY DISORDERS!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Antisocial Personality Disorder. a pattern of disregard for violation of the rights and properties of others, without feeligs of guilt and remorse. dishonest, deceitful manipulation of others also characteristic of such individuals. NEXT UP! DISSOCIATIVE DISORDERS~ Dissociative Amnesia. individual forgets about major events to an extent to be called normal forgetfulness. usually associated with stress and traumatic experiences. Dissociative Fugue. individual unexpectedly and suddenly travels away from home or work to a place faraway and may not remember own identity and assumes a new identity. Dissociative Identity Disorder. two or more different distinct identities-each with its own personality- within an indivdual, assumes the different identity at different times. DIFFERENT FROM SCHIZOPHRENIA!!!!!!!! Schizophrenia. disorganized speech, behavior, decreased emotional behavior, hallucinations. difference with Dissociative Identity Disorder: something like.. they hear voices talking to them, BUT NOT ASSUMING DIFFERENT IDENTTTIES! TYPE 1 OF SCHIZOPHRENIC PATIENTS. NO LOSS OF NORMAL FUNCTIONING YET. JUST DISTORTIONS OF THOUGHTS. THE POSITIVE SYMPTOMS GROUP. responds well to medication, good chance of recovery. TYPE 2 OF SCHIZOPHRENIC PATIENTS. LOSS OF NORMAL FUNCTIONING....... DULLED EMOTIONS & DONT WANNA SPEAK. THE NEGATIVE SYMPTOMS GROUP. doesnt respond well to medication, low chance of recovery. THIS IS ALL I'VE COVERED FOR ABNORMAL PSY. HOPE I WONT BE LATE FOR SCHOOL. ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ. SWALLOW SALIVA V PAIN. :'( NIVLA says: WOOOO finally done!!!!!! haha crs i comfirm get B OKAY im off NOW! tata!! TTYL OOOO good luck for ur test arhh! SMILE SMILE! ALRIGHT. ENQI. BELIEVE! SMILE! ^_^ YOU CAN DE! IKUZO! YOSSHHHH!~ |
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エンチ says: goodluck for ur presentation alright. i feel miserable. v tired. NIVLA says: haha yepp will the y? エンチ says: i go sleep first.. NIVLA says: still studying? haiyoo エンチ says: ya. NIVLA says: com'on happy girl smile ur way through la can thee!! BELIEVE BELIEVE! エンチ says: tml morning wake up earlier ba..................................... to study. *stabs myself. NIVLA says: haiyooo smile smile! com'on okok? u can do it the!!! thanks.. really.. but im really v drained. x.x |
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Tuesday, August 3, 2010
my personal msg on msn read, it's only humanistic to need praise & reaffirmation. tired of listening to you. when will it be your turn to listen to me? ~~~~~~~~ Leon says: awww do you need a listening ear? :O エンチ -studying says: :( Leon says: awwwwwwwww dun :( since when do you :( de whats wrong D: エンチ -studying says: my mom was so mean. my heart is missing a tiny bit. lol! ahhh. study. Leon says: awwww what she do? i go smack her D: エンチ -studying says: LOL WTF U THINK I STILL IN EARLY CHILDHOOD? LOL!!!!!!!!!!! OKAY WOW THAT MADE ME STOP SULKING. Leon says: HAHAHAHAHAH amazinggggg:D oh, "ninja leon" cause he sneaked close to groups when miss wee was announcing our individual makrs for APA, and tou ting ( duno how to spell the ang moh word for this la LOL ) okok. study. psy. A1. |
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Sunday, August 1, 2010
since fb is being sucha slow bitch at loading, shall do a little life lesson learnt from my Massu-san. 1. Believe! 2. Smile! 3. Appreciate, treasure, cherish, go awwwwwwwwwwwww at the littlest of things. Happiness at its purest stage. yes, its important. sometimes simplicity is always the best. i went swimming w aisyah today!!!!!!!! our first date. *shy. LOL! |
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