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Friday, September 30, 2011
 rain is baek. |
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On 1st of October, Alvin tan asked me for a breakup. I am single now. |
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Thursday, September 29, 2011
Romanji: Mahou no melody Bakuzen toshita kanjou mo Kotoba ni dekinai kasuka na fuan mo Dareka ga sotto Ishikoro wo Hourinageta toki Yureru minamo no you ni Zawameku mune ni hibiku Yasashisa utau you na merodi wa Dokokade nakushita Daijina Kibou no kakera ni Mou ichido deaeta you de Itsu no ma ni ka Me wo sorashiteta ne Natsukashikute Namida afure sousa Ayunde kita Michi terasuyouni Omoi ga kikoete kita Mahou no melody Hibiki watare motto tooku e Sono urei mo Sono itami mo Tokashite egao ni kaetekureyo Donna toki mo kuchi zusameba ah Sugashii kaze no you na Senritsu ni Kokoro habatakasete Dokomade datte ikerukara Yozora mitasu hoshi wo Miage senobi sureba todoki soude Chiisana Te no hira Hirogete Tsukamou to shiteta Hibi wa omoide no naka Itsumo kikoeteita Itoshisa utau you na merodi wa Kurikaesuhibi Genjitsu Risou no hazama de Itsushika wasurete shimatte Mabushikutemo Me wo sorasanaide Natsukashisa no Kabe no mukou kara wa Sasayaka demo Nichijou no nakani Hikari ga afureteita Mahou no merodi Hibiki watare toki wo koete Ano negai mo Ano chikai mo Me no mae ni yomigaette kuru yo Ano hi bokura kuchi zusanda ah Matataku hoshi no you na Senritsu wa Ima mo kokoro no oku de senaka wo oshitekureru kara English: Magical melody Feelings of vagueness And feelings of uncertainty that can't be described Are like the ripples on the water surface When someone quietly throws a pebble into the water The melody that sings about gentleness Stirring in the chest Is like a reunion with shards of the precious wish That was lost somewhere When was it when we started to avert our eyes from it It's so nostalgic That it makes me feel like tearing I could hear the emotions That seem to be lighting up the streets I walked on The magical melody is resounding through space That sadness That pain Please melt and become smiles Regardless of when it is, if you hum it The melody that is like a refreshing gust of wind Will allow your heart to soar to wherever it wishes to go The stars in the starry night sky Seem like they can be touched just by looking up and reaching out Those days when I tried to grasp them by opening up my small palms Remain in my mind The melody I always heard That which sings about love Seems to have been left behind In the gap between reality and ideals Amidst the daily routine Even if it's very bright Please don't avert your eyes From the other side of the wall of familiarity Even though it's just a little bit It floods your routine with light The magical melody is resounding through time That wish That promise Will re-awaken in front of you When we hummed it that day The melody that is like a twinkling star Will, even now, give you a push on the back from the bottom of your heart i had to post this here, else i would have to keep accessing the post in fb group. LOL! |
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Everybody wants me to listen to them. But then, Who listens to me? |
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Maybe baking isn't my forte. Should just give up on it huh. Forget about the bakery. Just forget it. Take it that I've never mentioned a word about it. It never existed. Sigh. |
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Wednesday, September 28, 2011
As long as I don't give up, Someday, I'll succeed. I believe I will. |
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I hate marshmallows. Disgusting. |
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Tuesday, September 27, 2011
Erm, seriously, I don't give a fuck? Just get the fuck out of my life, I want you to disappear. Fuck, off. If I ever had a chance to change it, I wouldn't have chosen this path. If you ever come sniffing around again, So be it. Imma gonna stay indifferent, You're just a pea in my life anyway. In Sig NI Fi Cant. Just don't mess around with my life again and I'm cool. |
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You don't know. Ive always been good at pretending. :) |
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Monday, September 26, 2011
 cant wait for my tegomasu no mahou album to arrive~ massu's getting impatient too~ >//<  such a big difference! netball->softball. LOL!!geh. if css had softball confirm i join also laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa! rawr. |
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Today's a brand new day. I'm in bed. Hungry. But lazy to move. Hm. Today : plan tuition stuffs. That's all. LOL. Okay maybe night time do Japanese. My life during the holidays now: Training, swimming, running, studying Japanese, tuitioning, going out with Alvin tan, going out with alyah Dinah. That's about it. LOL. Things I've yet to do: Go out with andersens' aunty, go on a date w AisyahSeeley, pick up my guitar again, &........ ? Oh bake a SUCCESSFUL bread. Yes. Eto.. And try making the cabbage rolls! =D That's all I can remember.... OH. And of course, shopping before the new sem starts.!!!!!!!!! *prays that the new sem will be a smooth sailing one please. Even if it isn't, I WILL make it a good one. Else I can't go chiang Mai with a happy heart. それは良くないね！ |
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my mind's fuzzy wuzzy! @_@ fever coming liaoz. tomorrow is tuesday. i am wasting my holidays away! D: so anyways. i signed myself up for SCS project! =S hope it'll all be fine......... so much for free will leon! Xp loved that part the most. heh should plan my holidays properly laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa oh no oh no. try try try, do or die. time to up your self esteem enqi! dont look down on yourself. -leonguok. food for thought aye. |
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Sunday, September 25, 2011
Coach's face when calling weekai... LOL it's still in my mind. I love Sunday trainings, idk why. It feels good. Maybe cause alyah Dinah is there!!!!!! Jolene tan should come too!!!! RAWR! Hehe. My Sundays has become much more colorful suddenly. ^^ |
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We're scared to commit cause we're afraid it may fail in the end and our efforts will come to nought. |
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Saturday, September 24, 2011
Everything changes. Friends become acquaintances. Everything restarts. In time, You will see who are the ones really true to you, there for you. :) I don't wanna say anymore. If you don't care, why should I? Interpersonal relationships build on a very very fundamental basis of giving and taking, equally. |
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Friday, September 23, 2011
 we washed the plates together! <:] my little assistant today! he was verrrrrry obedient! <3 (very rare haha) dinner which i prepared for myself. but didnt have appetite to eat the bread. lol.. inside wasnt cooked... sigh. again. failed. fucking sad.  damn fail liao...... bread tin too tiny. ._. at this stage, im still very happy. today's bread was reeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaally soft & smooth! <:]i'm having this, urge to just roam around Singapore feeling. alyah dinah.. tbh.. i was kinda afraid you wouldnt be free tomorrow. ._. LOL. OH WELLS. HEHE FOR TML. GIRLFRIENDS RAWK. <3 [[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[ <- i miss @cherylKIMCHIganTAEMIN. D: LOL. HEHE. hope she's having fun in korea! ^^ |
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if you need me, just call me. i'll never call you. cause im not someone like that. haha. |
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i dont feel good.. ._. am i really good at nothing? dont tell me im good at making people smile, being a good listening ear, blah blah. thats pure bullshit. where can that get me in life? lol. i got no appetite for the dinner i made for myself. lol.. |
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Thursday, September 22, 2011
 aw. sometimes i really think i lead a blessed life like crayon shin-chan. LOL.you must understand, i dont mean what i say. can't you feel it? no matter what the things i say, deep down, it's really just to see how much you care. typical isnt it. call this attention seeking. if you dont care, i'll figure out that this is really what i thought it would be. that you dont really understand me. but. how do you even understand someone completely? sometimes i dont too. |
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The fact that I don't get angry easily, Or rather, I don't know how to get angry, Doesn't mean that I dont feel anger. I do. I just show it in another way. Which not many understands. Clowns are forever entertaining people. But does anyone understand them? Have you seen a clown tear? |
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Wednesday, September 21, 2011
はよう(⌒▽⌒) 今日の天気は寒いね！ Okay wanted to continue in Japanese, but I couldn't-..- It's a sign. LOL. Shall wake up t bathe, buy food, & study!!!!!! Things I want to do during this holiday: 1. Meet andersens' aunty Annie for our sushi buffet! 2. Double date with pow & jol & dinahhh 3. Pick up my guitar again. LOL 4. Seriously, 日本語の勉強するだけだけだけ！ 5. Swim at least 2 times/weeeek! 3 is a bonus. Heh 6. Go out w @AisyahSeeley! To just talk about life ^_^ 7. アリヤちゃんと一緒にdateしよう(*^^*) date with alyah-chan~ (first year is coming!!!!!) 恥ずかしい 8. Bake my dubu pan. Tofu bread. LOL I jus combined Korean and Japanese. 9. SHOPPINGGGGGG for the new sem. It's all for a better tomorrow people. Xp 10. Real run marathon w dear dear. This will be a nice closure to the holidays. ;> Anything else....... Hmmmz |
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what i have been up to for this week. LOL! this week is a boring one............................... cause i have tuition on tues, wed, and thurs. -.- i feel so tired. lol. i dont wanna talk anymore about tuition. in short, kids suck. big time. i prefer a daughter. seriously. boys suck. lol. personal opinion here. k bye. |
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Tuesday, September 20, 2011
 cute stuffs.wonder how they do these. will i be able to bake these someday? when pasttimes become your passion. #itsj. the journey towards your dream is never easy. that's what makes the journey memorable, deshou~? :] fighting! |
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Maybe it's time I be more kiasu. Fuck. But that isn't me. |
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Monday, September 19, 2011
 then today must have been a really heavy rain.i will be expecting a rainbow from myself. one thing about myself, i wont give up. as long as there's still hope, i will fight. "Don't lose even before fighting! Show me a you that even if it's impossible, you won't give up till the very end!" Yes, this is the spirit i will have. Even if deep inside you, you know it's already impossible, continue fighting. You never know when a miracle will happen. >;) |
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when i think of how im going to make it for next semester, can i really get at least a 3 for next semester, i want to cry. lol. not that im not hopeful, but.. a 2.28 to 3.. is really very far.. sigh.. |
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I'm thankful I have her to hug. Hugging something when you cry is nice.. Sigh.  |
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Sem gpa-> 3.071 - 3.192 - 2.286. What the fuck? Cumulative : 3.071 - 3.138 - 2.875 I no face to look seriously. Okay I don't need go university already. Might as well work after poly -.- lol. I really duno what to do now. Sad? Not really. Angry? Not really. Just, lost. Annoyed. Irritated. I want to do something about this. I have next sem to make it right again. And I'll do everything to get it done. Next sem gpa will be above 3. Will be. It's my only chance at redeeming myself before year 3. I will create a miracle. I will. |
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Something big's gonna happen tml. alyah baobeiz came over to run w me. the feeling.. heh. it's nice. idk how to say it. like ive got a younger sister suddenly. <3 thank u!!!! ^^ |
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I don't have to use money to show my support what.. Lol. Speechless. |
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Saturday, September 17, 2011
Alvin tan ting tong managed to catch it! See the ribbon at its neck? The UFO catcher surprisingly and amazingly managed to hook on to it! After watching a tutorial on tips on catching different angled toys, He decided on a 45 degree angle. How he did that? By using the UFO catcher to brush against all of the dogs' noses. K 45 degree angle done. Next, move it to the toy. I reeeeally thought it was bye-bye $1 after the kiap went down know! Then the toy came up. Dumbest part. Toy got caught, supposed t drop right? The ribbon thingy stuck on the UFO catcher's kiap. =_= had t ask the people there t help u's take the toy out from the kiap. #mostmemorablemoment. Kiseki ga atta! A miracle happened! The supposedly Mickey mouse that looks like a fox/dog now has a name! Miracle. ^_^       |
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Friday, September 16, 2011
Sitting on my bed nao. Am really looking forward to meixi coming home! #justlikeoldtimes we agreed to go run together with champagne and Ron! :] nothing beats having friends that'll never forget you, even when they're far far away. Friendships are really a wonderful thing right.. Treasure all of your friendships! It's never too late to start. C; |
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Forum is real fun to do. If only what I'm thinking of now becomes a forum piece itself, I would wanna try intervening. |
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Thursday, September 15, 2011
Kiora~! homai te Paki Paki 皆さん！ That's the end of iti! "to come back to see my friends? Definitely." "walk life with a purpose!" Loved how Peter shared his story during the last group's playback session. Loved wani's playback group the most!!! Everyone really did well! 5 days with a friend from new Zealand, Well spent. Thank you mr Peter! ^^ I think I'm loving forum from a deeper level. ;) For the remaining 30% I shall try some playback. @theonlyforumgroup, nicely done! ^^ Can't really express how I feel in words, But I know I'm taking this with me to a whole new level. =D FUCK U ALVIN TAN STOP STARING AT MY BLOG CHEEBONG |
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私は君が愛してるん。。 話せないから、 君はこの言葉がしてるかな? たぶん知らないね。 大好きな人は君です。 |
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"this girl got trusting issues sia" that, i agree. i do. ever since that happened. haha. bee would know what im refering to. lol! the past will never stop haunting us, sadly. sadly. i dont know when i will ever trust you.. ._. |
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Tuesday, September 13, 2011
If you just pay more bit of attention, you'll realize something else. You'll understand something new. If you read between the lines, you'll see that that wasn't what she meant at all.. not at all. She doesn't want to elaborate so much on it, because of.. fear. She's scared. When things get too pretty, something ugly always happens. It's tough trying to live your feelings honestly, with the fear of the possible consequences behind your actions.. it's tough. Really. I dont want to show the reliant side to anyone because I dont want to suffer when they leave me eventually. No one stays by your side forever. When I got too close to him, he left. I suffered. The pain of waiting. Who doesn't know it. Face it. Everyone has their fair share of insecurities. Will we be happier living our lives in pathetic oblivion and pretence? Will living a facade make everything better? It seems that's the case. |
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Monday, September 12, 2011
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0ny5SAdHKqs&feature=related thank you @alyahdinah for this! :' ) i kinda teared. im so emotional. like u sayang. LOL. jogeum himdeurodo utneun nari olkkoya! although tiring, there will be days to smile! exactly what i need for this weeeek. ;] "loosen up my buttons" "waffles raffles truffles wuffles, woof." LOL. i hope you enjoyed these moments. yes, smile. oh! and paintball. LOL. k bye world. tml dont late. late u miss 3 lessons. knn. |
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Sunday, September 11, 2011
Testing 123 blogger app 123  |
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Saturday, September 10, 2011
  alyah dinah, my pimples thanked me for giving them a good bathe ^^i overheard their conversation!! =D happy pimples. this is my monthsary present for ni. <3 ke ai mah? eh i realized, today we first time working together.. ha? izzit? REPLY ME ON TWITTER AFT U SEE THIS. >:) zu yi verrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy cute!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i want my daughter to be like her :( so politeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
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Friday, September 9, 2011
sorry. shouldnt be such a busybody next time i suppose. |
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Be yourself, who are you? Find yourself! Cause I cant find you! -Who knows, Avril. (Y) zaylinn is a really easily contented dude.. i should learn from him. |
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Wednesday, September 7, 2011
doggy poo, a korean movie. wow. now im really inspired to do a self identity workshop for my fyp(abit early, but dreaming is always the first step aye!). im serious about this. i want to make it happen. i want to. i will. who's in this with me! >:D http://www.freeinfosociety.com/article.php?id=155 such an asshole. i say this was a very creative way to do it lor! D:< |
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only you have the right to feel sorry for yourself. do you want to feel sorry for yourself? it's your choice. |
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 =D lenka = <3 |
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It isn’t true. It’s important for you to love and accept yourself, essential. In fact, it may be one of the most important tasks in life. I’m just so, so sick of seeing poor, lonely, broken souls who think that because they don’t like themselves that no one else can. By “encouraging” others to love themselves with this, all it’s doing is destroying them more by making them feel even more lonely than they already are. Sometimes what you need is someone to love you even when you don’t love yourself. It’s possible, it’s so possible. You need someone to show you that there is more to you than what you think, because we all have such jaded views of ourselves in today’s crooked society. We need somebody to show us that it is okay to love ourselves and that we’re capable of being loved and loving ourselves. You don’t have to love yourself for other people to love you, it’s just important to love yourself no matter what. Think about all the people who commit suicide who leave behind them a wake of pain and despair. Most suicide victims hate themselves and their lives, but they’re still loved by those they leave behind, are they not? So don’t believe it. Don’t believe that you need to love yourself to be loved. You don’t. You just need to be yourself and accept yourself, and outside love will come and go as it pleases. That’s all it really comes down to. Love isn’t this situational, predictable, definable bullshit that everybody makes it out to be nowadays. It is what it is, and you are what you are. Focus on loving yourself, and everything else will fall into place. I promise. For someone. |
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Saturday, September 3, 2011
 so pretty. so oichii.
 the star reminded me of Massuperman! ^_^it's likea MASSU CAKEY. ^^ |
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so after making rainbows appear in cupcakes...... this is my next mission. LOL. nah. abit too ambitious deshou. ._. sigh. |
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Friday, September 2, 2011
dont blame me for doing the same thing next time. dont blame me. |
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"人生はrollercoaster! 乗る前は怖いけど、乗ったらその先に、 fun things await you!" Even if you're scared, as long as you have the courage, you'll have a fun ride! -waraeru koi ha shitakunai. this part is so cute. the oba-chan. ^^ 最後まで、頑張っているん！ miracles can happen as long as you dont give up till the end! 奇跡があった！ 覚えてね！ ahhhhhhh. ending got cut off. oh wells. but ive got a clearer view of the whole story already. tonaka-san's cake shop got saved! ^^ kiseki ga arun ne.. =D jya! off to swim! ^^ ii tenki. hope there isnt alot of people......... <:S should i get a new pair of googles... ? |
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Thursday, September 1, 2011
freedom. |
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想笑, 来伪装掉下的眼泪. 点点头, 承认自己会怕黑. 天灰灰,会不会, 让我忘了你是谁.. |
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