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Sunday, February 27, 2011
 dear, this action familiar? HAHA  i love him in this much much!!!so country country. so massu-ish. ^^ 簡単な幸せだ～ |
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If we don't give up and keep on looking forward, I think we'll see the path infornt of us. ♥ ~ (by: Masuda Takahisa of newS @ 24TV) yappari, massu-chan! ^^ |
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Nur Artika ' Sometimes people come into your life just to teach you a lesson, then they leave. Take that lesson seriously. nice. |
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All I know is you came to me when I was at my lowest. You picked me up, breathed new life in me. I owe my life to you. But for the life of me, I don't see why you don't see like I do. I don't think you realize what you mean to me, not the slightest clue. Can't make a decision, you keep questioning yourself. creepy.. time will tell. dinah. i think u will know me best in time to come. *winkwink. |
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Friday, February 25, 2011
 i wanna see red red big big autumn leaves someday! and run through a big big field of sunflowers~ ^^ive always thought there were red dandelions. =( sigh. |
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 nice nice. sarang. teehee. massu happy i happy. this made me squeal when i saw it in fb.thank you for the tag!!!! XD i like i like. my album faster come faster come. $30. jialat. should i still buy ipod touch? HAHAHA. keep shopping and buying. =_= sian. BUT MY PHONE IS ONLY $10. I DONT LIKE. I WANNA BE RICH. D: |
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Thursday, February 24, 2011
 i know ive found you. alyah dinah, here's what we've been through. 3 boxes of hello panda. HAHAHHAHAHAAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! "Hi Miss, any water for you?" ね～ you can go your way, いつだってここにいる！ i'll always be with you 胸の中！ ^^ 約束。 |
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Tuesday, February 22, 2011
        増田さん～ あなたはとてもかわいいな。本当だ！ いつも笑ってくださいね！ ^^ |
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wanna feel the warm breeze, sleep under a palm tree, feel the rush of the ocean. i have my friends. thats more than enough. i'll do anything to protect them. i promise i will. why bother so much? A simplified life is a happy life. Whoever dares to come around making my life complicated, f off man. haha. leon: alvin or dinah? me: dinah! leon: ... you said it with so much conviction its hard to believe ure lying. it came from ur heart right? me: yup! i meant it! power of love. |
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Monday, February 21, 2011
Cause only love can say, Try again or walk away. but love is a nonsensical thing yo. LOL. you will change ur mind in time. Will. Cheryl: why nv meet vincent? Me: life. LOL cheryl u suck deep deep, but that's why ily deep deep too. Heh. |
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Hold on or let go. Vague. My fart smells like mocha. Starbucks is addictive. Yum. Wtf my mum listening to her handphone songs as she bathe. Copycat. Boooooooooo. QNRM ILY DEEP DEEP, U MUST LOVE ME DEEP DEEP TML OSO KAY^^ |
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Sunday, February 20, 2011
Its not easy to tell u goodbye, Gotta, Take a risk, Take a chance, Make a change~ Breakaway~ |
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Hai! Korekara ha, zutto kanjou ga feel!!!!!!!!!! Not gonna hide anything. Cause it's stupid to suffer and cry every night. I promise myself to stay strong for my friends. Minna de!! You never know how strong your words can ha e an impact on someone. I love you Enqi. =D It's a new week!!~ Let go, You'll be able to see a clearer sky na. |
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I want my inner peace back. Shall we just stay as friends? Nothing more. Sometimes thinking may be the best way out. Don't feel. Some people... You just have to let them go if you can't promise happiness. No point smiling when you don't mean it, It's stupid, Stupid. Don't try too hard, Sometimes it's better to let go of certain things. Enough. I don't wanna avoid anymore. Even dear could see that the 3 pathetic days of meditation didn't help. Fml. Erasing. Painful, but that's life. Never choose to believe in anything that you don't truely believe in. Cause it doesn't work this way. Like leon said, 30%. I'd save you if I could, I thought I could, But maybe I just can't. Sorry!! |
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Friday, February 18, 2011
Once upon a time, there lived a girl, happy with her life, hopeful of the future. One day, a boy came along. Everything changed. Some days were good, some day were bad. At least the girl knew she was happy. As days passed, somehow they gradually drifted apart. The boy said he wanted to leave. The girl tried her best to make everything work again. One day, another girl came along. This girl knew it was a mistake from the start. She knew... The forever that the girl and the boy used to sing, Faded. The girl that depended on the boy, so strong, crumbled. The girl that came along, only had one thing in mind. For both of them to be happy. She never wanted to bring anyone sadness.. My smile was supposed to bring only happiness.. Everything fades. Nothing lasts forever. -the story for dear. Cheh aku can write novel already siol. LOL |
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Thursday, February 17, 2011
ONE TAIL AND TWO TAILED Z TEST. CLEARED. NEXT UP, confidence intervals based on z distribution. t test: one and two tailed. (AHHHHHH AGAIN TAIL TEST. WTF.) confidence intervals based on t distribution. chi-square goodness-of-fit test. yosssh. enqi jiayou. by today finish this chapter. tml do ilp. must start liao. still got japanese homework. cb. [ |
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Wednesday, February 16, 2011
leon: what's that in the sky????? me: onigiris. leon: ... me: O_o HAHAHAHA me: actually can cross the road one lei... *green man blinking. let's go ah! leon and me: *starts running. *green man turns to red man. leon and me: UWAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA *chiong faster. i swear im weird. i swear i am. enqi you have been thinking too much na~ tomorrow shall think somemore. yosh. tomorrow must finish 2 qnrm chapters!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1 then start on ilp. knnccb. ahahahaha -_- I JUST HAD A BIRD NEST MASK ON. YEAH MAN....... |
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Tuesday, February 15, 2011
 what leon has always been telling me. fuck. im suddenly disgusted. lol! this is how shameless human creatures are.  yeah man. |
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There's a world out there that we should see. A big big world indeed. No point getting bounded by trival matters. Gather the breeze, Chase the clouds, Catch the sun! あの夏の夢、 行くぞ！ Dreams. What was my initial dream? My future ones? 実は。。。 知らないな。 しかし、 大丈夫かな～ 今の自分は。。。 must do my best!! dont let myself down. that's all im asking for. enqi. yosshhh!!!!! |
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stupid people make you do stupid things. bodoh nye orang. leon said just put 30%. i agree na~ i wonder why im listening to him so much. CONFORMITY. LOL. but he makes sense! oh wadever. i love him for being in my life. i love him for being him. yeah man~ heh. i wont lose myself, i swear i wont. just one more time to trigger something. one more time. |
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Monday, February 14, 2011
we're all pathetic creatures trying to be happy. most of the time trying too hard. 疲れた。 もう一度がいりません。 お願い。 |
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 ひまわりのストーリー。 時間があらない。 ひまわりの笑顔が、消えているん。。。 その笑顔が。。。守りたいん。 だって。。。 Leon: at least fake ones last. real ones just wilt and die off. the best thing is now you have to watch it die, slowly. that set me thinking. Why do farmers(or wadever u call them) have to pluck these creatures out and bring them to a foreign land? Sunflowers belong to the field. They are happy there. Dear said it was for the florists to earn money. Datte!!!!!! To sacrifice them just for monetary gains? =\ Why can't you just let them stay on the field.... Then Dear said again. "But if they stay there, how to make way for new flowers belonging to the new season to grow?" Out with the old, in with the new? But still....................................... I felt kinda selfish. I should not have uprooted you. You do not belong here with me na... Heaven created flowers to beautify things at a moment in time. That's all. Then they have to die. That's all. I feel sad... Flowers have feelings!!!!!!! =( Himawari-chan told me so. (dinah, dont visualize that image, dont smile to urself.) p.s: alyah dinah i know u reading. HAHA!!!! i have to go now. *wave wave. HAHAHAAH!!!!!!! |
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Saturday, February 12, 2011
after rain there will definitely be sunshine, someday. 辛苦了， 幸福就会来了。 when to stop hiding. i hate hiding. i want live my feelings honestly. very honestly. but can i? |
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sometimes the best revenge: happiness. happiness, is to smile, move on, do nothing. -alyah dinah. HAHA. aiyo.................... i just want a peaceful life hor. let me breathe in peace, let me die in peace. |
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alyah says: she suddenly become crazy. i think so ah.. got the aura :/ enqi says: yes. .... LOL OH GOSH. LOL my heart beating fast LOL i fear for moii life LOL i was talking abt this w my mum in the noon.. and i told her while smiling, "i knw karma will hit me back someday" LOL but wad to do sehhh wads done cannot be undone liaos. as much as i want not to be labelled a bitch, i am already labelled as one. alyah says: hehe too much words. all i can say is annor Xp HAHAHAHAHA!!!! i love dear la aiyo. so yah. i dont want u near me.... =( just like how u hate me. hahahhaaahahhaha -.- cb u shut up hor. i dun want eat my business. cb. i realized, ive never really cried for anyone. ive only done so for my Bobo and turtle. hm. look at these photographs. massu i need u. looking back, it was you who made me so smiley na~ <3 aishiteru na! ^^ |
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Friday, February 11, 2011
   11/02/2011.a boring day of 11am-1pm's ilp lecture in t2121. finally, ALL presentations are over. よかったな！～ horoscope-san asked me to keep up the good fight, but today's me sucked a little. 大丈夫だって！ 終わりました～ he had braces on before!!~ :O dear: "you two like....." me: " :3 wad wad? " dear: "same same." me: *yes ah! "in wad way?" dear: "LOL!!!!!!!!!!!!! the thinking~" |
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Wednesday, February 9, 2011
maybe i should spend some time thinking about my future. http://admissions.apu.ac.jp/costs_scholarships/enrollment.html http://admissions.apu.ac.jp/course/aps.html if ure sure that's wad u want, go for it. remember, no regrets. |
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i pray for freedom. i pray for you. once upon a time. now its down to DD and ISP~ i'll always have time for revising Japanese, but never time for revising QNRM. ^^v~ i affirm you for being the sunshine in the class. i affirm you for being optimistic. i affirm you for smiling no matter what happens. "but sometimes i get tired too..." nah its okay. no one has to know anyway. i affirm myself for never regretting anything that i choose to do from now on. dont, regret. |
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Tuesday, February 8, 2011
 AH. MY RIGHT EYE JUS TWITCHED ONCE.LOL. enqi says: i teman u till 1~ <- we really like couple. HAHAHAA alyah says: i can sense the love baby! haha JIAYOU ENQI. TML MORNING BUY CHOCOLATE TO KEEP THAT ENERGY UPPPPPZZZZZ! ^^ thursday~ I AM SO FUCKING TIRED. WANT TO SLEEP MY LIFE AWAY! D: |
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Smile! Like there's no tomorrow. Cmon, we aint gonna live forevaaa. Just.. Believe! Go all out, and have fun! Do your best! ^-^ im really not a competitive person.. im neutral to a point that it seems like i dont even bother. -.- wonder in what aspects will i be seen as a threat. Gather the breeze, Chase the clouds, Catch the sun! enqi's past self thoughts. |
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Monday, February 7, 2011
living with reality is always the hardest. |
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im not easy to please. |
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Sunday, February 6, 2011
  i miss her. aw.  karma. |
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Saturday, February 5, 2011
 ='\ i think i need meditate somemore. |
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making all of us so tired. -.- i shall not comment anymore. my meditation not strong enough. i should go for 30 days now. instead of 3 days. lol. HAVEN DO MY JAPANESE AHHHHHH CB |
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Angelina Marilyn Bonbons February 5 at 9:14pm Report Thanks for stepping into my love life, for 3 years I spent with Alvin I've never been this hurt before. Why don't you put yourself in my shoes and understand my precious feelings? Do you know how it's like to have someone being taken away? Do you? Do you know what it's like to put in so much effort just to make sure a faith would stay strong? Do you know how it's like to have so much physical attachment with a guy whom you think is your mr right? Do you know what it's like to be lied to badly? Do you know all those, person-who's-older-than-me? And you said you'll keep a distance from him, sure , I wonder how is all those in facebook called keeping a distance. You guys will still talk during training anyway. Thanks for giving a vague excuse. You can like him all you want now. You two are really good liars. And youre really lame and a coward for deleting me off your friends list, why not delete him as well am i right? Thanks a lot for ruining my life :) all the best in your future girl! this is my punishment. emotional blackmail. 皆さん！見て！見て！ things change, people change, everything fades. karma loves me, i love karma. what to do? bitchy me. nothing i say will save myself already~ off to work hard for, qnrm~ ideas~ ilp~ AH. tml must ask wanshu about DIE. 覚えている！ |
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 実は、あなたの笑顔は、すごくかわいいな。 あなたの心を感じる。 あたしの心は暖かいんな～ ^^v~ |
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Friday, February 4, 2011
enqi says: no matter what happens, ure still the same old cheryl i will always love. Cheryl says: OHHHHHHHHH that sent a chill down my spine HAHAHAHA Cheryl says: you see open all the email and see lor enqi says: LOL i opened everything le LOL 16 emails siol LOL CHILL LA JiAxiN mEiixMeiiX Cheryl says: __ tumourgalz92@hotmail.com enqi says: LOL that made me smile. eh actually the "report" u gave us.. more than enough for us to write our own report liao lor.. :' ) ure so nice.. Cheryl says: what's with the :') enqi says: why u so nice.. tsk. people touched. i want do something for u too. cause it was supposed to be me and u tgt do. Cheryl says: dont action action here for tak perlu. enqi says: LOL Cheryl says: LOL~ enqi says: cb..... u v wad lei.. Cheryl says: working ma peopleeeeee...... xin ku maaaa enqi says: AWWWWWWWWW OKAY LA, MONDAY GIVE U ANGBAO HAHHA! Cheryl says: WTF?! enqi says: LOL!!!!!!!!!!! wonderful people can really help you get through almost anything and everything! ^^ ashita!!! 1. RUN. 2. QNRM. 3. IDEAS. 4. ILP. 5. JAPANESEEEEEEEEE OH GOSH. <- cannot let massu down!!!!! D: okay. ^_^! kitto daijoubu~ |
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i dont know if ure one of the loyal readers of my blog. but oh wells. a post for you. firstly, sorry. i know i was at fault. he was at fault. you were at fault too. think about it, will blaming me change anything? if you said it would, i have nothing more to say. i avoided him for 3 days. i did. i thought about everything. i spared a thought for u. i was tortured by the guilt. super tak perlu can. secondly, IF I HAD A CHOICE I WILL STILL JOIN SOFTBALL. think about it, why did heaven arrange for all the meetings with people that we know now? things happen for a reason. thirdly, it has happened already. how long more before you finally decide to let go? ANNAR, I COWARD KAY? I COWARD KAY? I DELETED U TO SAVE MYSELF. gosh. okay. i know karma will hit me back someday, but whatever. if you wait till you know its right to do something, then you probably wouldnt have done much of anything. if u want him back, fight for him. thats all i can say. im not gonna do anything, im just gonna live my life, the way i have always done so. okay. after this post, end of story. TIME TO EMBRACE NEXT WEEK'S LOVELY DAYS. YOSSSSSHHHHH! live your life calling me a bitch, if it makes you happier. labels are just shallow forms of identification. |
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Thursday, February 3, 2011
Labels. Live with them. Labels are just shallow forms of identification. WA SEH ENQI MOMENT! HAHAHAHAHAHAH I DELETED U,SO?????????????????? busy song ah come boon lay find me ah! HAHAHAHAHAHAH CB I FEEL SO BITCHY. 3 days of meditating, I'm now ready for a fight. LOL. Stronger!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Okokokok. Be nice enqi. Not naughty. LOL. |
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Day4. artika said first u'll want him no where near u, next is the missing him stage, but dont give in to temptation, else its a never ending cycle. I think im in the missing him stage now. Gotta continue self meditating.. Prepare for next weeeek's battle!!!!! Yossssshhhh!!!!! If its really fated, a miracle will happen. Leon said why leave it up to fate when u can control things. But.............. Hm. |
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Something that I didn't realise had been there all this while. If u just realise. |
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Wednesday, February 2, 2011
We can get thru anything together. Yea right. Make me believe. |
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too cute!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! >_< !!!!!! hehe. omgosh. enqi tahan.................. i seriously have a thing for guys who look like japanese and learn japanese. LOL. fetish. back to self-meditating. i hate the moon. |
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i love how awfully honest dear is. HAHA. okay that's it. i should have done it sooner. like what aisyah said, firstly, its her. secondly, me. thirdly, aisyah banana seeley. next and thereafter, all my friends. -_- grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. P R I V A T E !!! muahahahahahahahahhahahaha. =D i cant change the way i am, im the one who has to die when its time to die, so let me live my life the way i want to. till im ready. im still in hiding mode for one week!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! till im not irritated anymoreeeeeeee. self-meditation. i miss school. |
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leon said im so bitchy today. uwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. oh wells~ time for a change. muahahaha. now wad did i do!? もう壊れる！ 何をしるんですか～ 如何したんのですか～ もういいよ。 もう終わった。 うるさいよ！！！！！！ |
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Tuesday, February 1, 2011
me: i dont wanna be labelled anymore! leon: everyone has a label on them. me: O_o? leon: you're a female! ^^ me: ... win. (Y) LOL. oh wells. escapism is despicable behavior, but, till im ready. the sun has been out for 2 days! LOL. im feeling the same way for 2 days~ taiyou-san is supporting me. i remember writing something about bobo being the sun... he's there! pushing me, telling me not to give up. always there. ^^v~ |
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Being different isn't always easy, but maybe you've had enough of the same-old same-old. Those expecting you to be nice might be in for a surprise. how do all my horoscope predictions turn out to be so accurate... i swear someone wise is behind it giving me advice. LOL! 5 more days left. 頑張って！頑張って！あきらめないで！ what will the outcome be... im rather keen to know. hm. |
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me: "im happy!" artika: "stop lying to urself." assssssss. LOL!!!! aisyah: "ure fat w happiness!!" me: "banana." LOL. (Y) *speechless siol tml going out w glen guok. ~~ happy. happy. oh. weird, overly friendly indian guy again at stadium while running jus now -.- him: "find another bf la~" me: "im happy w him(leon)" WTF MAN SERIOUSLY?!?!?!!? he shouldve sensed the awkwardness already. -.- zz. this isnt how u make friends........... |
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no one listens, no one ever does. im scared to grow attached to people, cause i know they will all leave someday~ muffin might leave someday too.. bobo already did. it was painful, but... i managed. muffin ur eyes told me so much! :O |
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