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Monday, January 31, 2011
  i woke up late today. i think monday laugh too much already, too tired. LOL. so yar....... i decided to go online awhile before heading to school. and look at my good morning msg. <3 |
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not long ago I was blinded more than ever those days we always stood together they told me how I was just infatuated it finally hit me good this time surrounding me was just pure confusion guess I was drowning in my own illusion you were the problem lying over it all why don't I just jump off this edge? it's gonna be sensational I'm Fallin' Free Fallin' A city far along Soon I will be gone Fallin' I'm Fallin' Down Down Down... My new beginning today I've had enough, why don't you call me when you're sober although we all know that it's over no more letters telling me that you are sorry that whole routine makes you look lame all of my smiles that you confiscated I have a feeling that my time was wasted and now I know that I am ready to go don't need to have your love no more because I came here all alone I'm Fallin' Free Fallin' To somewhere I belong A place to call my home Fallin' I'm Fallin' Down Down Down... my life it starts out today Bye bye, I'm saying so long to you all those memories that I'll have to get over yeah don't wanna take this pain, oh no so go on right now, just take it away I'll take it away... I'm Fallin' Free Fallin' A city far along Soon I will be gone Fallin' I'm Fallin' Down Down Down... I'm Fallin' Free Fallin' To somewhere I belong A place to call my home Fallin' I'm Fallin' Down Down Down... my new beginning today... my life it starts out today... my new beginning today saying sorry will not help everything. no solutions were given to me, i found my own. give up, move on, be a happier person. "he will give up one la~" : Artika. (Y) awesome bitch. love her. it depends on fate now. some people meet no matter how many times they part. i like! dear and me went shop shop. she wanted shop shop, but i reminded her of her $3. HAHHHAHAA. missed out on so many things in class. feels so good to listen in class. "IKR" : Cheryl. cheryl bloody bitchy, today during qnrm keep laughing. LOL. a nice Monday. Monday as usual, always~ smells nice~ ^_^ enqi, dont give in to temptation. bear with it. it'll all be over~ all is well~ no one is dependent on each other. only variables are. LOL. WTF. ENQI. SERIOUSLY. okay sorry. self-thought moment~ |
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Sunday, January 30, 2011
suddenly received an sms from bee. "when eq is not happy, there will nv be sun. so do us a favour can? tsk. HAHA!" LOL. fucking sweet! dear's so sweet. bee's so sweet. artika's so sweet. cheryl's so sweet. leon's so sweet. there's just so much more in my life la can. aw. i smiling. heart warm warm. ^_^ |
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 this is the reason why heaven let me meet dear dear. ^_^ i said falling in love w a girl is so much better. and she replied, "look no further!" LOL! she said she teared when she saw my msg. teared for me. cute pe! HAHHAHAHA I LAUGHING AT HER. IMMA BITCH. HAHHA!!!!! <3 Reason 1 for me to work hard and smile, alyah dinah. i want both of us to do well in everything! and even if someday we end up in different places, look up at the sky, smile, and be happy! ^^ ive had enough!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! REALLY. TIME TO BE HAPPIE. yea yea yea yea~ eat those shit that u threw at me. LOL. wtf. sudden thought. best. (Y) |
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Saturday, January 29, 2011
shut up already. |
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cb. ive had enough! this does it! it was all a mistake to begin with. i hate fate. -.- please lei, fate, stop playing w me la. let me live my live simply and happily can not? but anyways. game over. time to look for the old me! |
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Cheryl says: -.- enqi, you know you have lost yourself so much. after this happened. you know right. i know you do enqi says: yes. Cheryl says: do you think its worth it? enqi says: no. i want myself back. i want the old enqi back. so badly. sem1. Cheryl says: then you have to do something drastic about things. like really stop it takes time. but it beats to doing whatever you are doing now. |
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 きれいな向日葵~ promise i'll be kind~ baby you'll be famous, chase you down until you love me~ paparazzi~ game over. |
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Wednesday, January 26, 2011
Alice Lyrics at elw enqi, open ur eyes. listen to what advice the people around u have to give. they know best. im gonna not believe in my own thoughts. for once. im not going to. bokutachi ha, onaji sekai deha nai. dakara, sayounara. |
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Monday, January 24, 2011
 増田ちゃん、 会いたいな。。。 |
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enqi says: yES TOTALLY LOL!!!! tml i show u how he wave wave LOL! EH MY FRINGE HOW?!?!!! LOL FKING HIGH LOL!!!!!!! Cheryl says: HAAAHAHAHA just go school. and kena laugh at la no choice hor enqi says: HAHAHAHA!!!!!! FINE~~~~~~ life's like that~ LOL!!!!!! cb. LOL. FINE. MY FRINGE SUCKS SO WAD. AT LEAST I STILL HAVE MY, EYES TO SEE, EARS TO HEAR, NOSE TO BREATHE, MOUTH TO LAUGH. *HERH. AND I HAVE AWESOME FRIENDS. BEAT THAT! |
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Sunday, January 23, 2011
2 days of being detached from the real world. 2 days of being under the warm warm sun & blue blue sky, on the field, with people that are working hard towards the same goal together, fighting together, cheering on each other, smiles and happiness. its time to go back to the real world. ... maybe i should spend my Monday night thinking about stuffs. its time to use your brain Enqi. -.- the time has come. |
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 koped this from alvin tan's profile. dear says she likes this picture. i like it too. today... was normal. dear hit the ball! then she looked at me. i was smiling. and atiqah saw me doing that. HAHAHAHAHAHA! (Y) ~ i was proud of dear. she said she looked at the "I CAN!" under her cap before batting. hehe. ^_^ it takes time, but we'll shine. zettai ni! :] its back to school tomorrow.. saturday and sunday felt like i took a holiday from singapore. LOL. wow. cool or wad. hehehehe. its over, but not entirely over. |
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Saturday, January 22, 2011
  coach smiled abit. abit!! it made my day. LOL. really it did. 22/01/2011. today smells like encouragement and sunny weather. to someone special, it is okay if u make mistakes~ just learn from them~~ ^_^ u can, then I CAN too! |
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Friday, January 21, 2011
  it's tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
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Wednesday, January 19, 2011
enqi is so stubborn, she has chosen to believe that better days will come. it definitely and eventually will! i am so stubborn, that im not gonna give up no matter what happens. yes. yosh. slowly... |
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i hate wednesdays. hate it, hate it, hate it, hate it. i feel useless, lousy, weak, scared. i trembled. i quivered. i.. i tried to smile to hide it. i tried my best. did it work? it might have.. but inside, im dying. i dont like this feeling.. enqi why are you so weak? why cant you have that much more of confidence? why? why? why? stupid. i want to cry, but no tears are coming out. is this what u call apathy? wad went wrong? sometimes.. i wonder if what im choosing to go through is all worth it. i have a choice, to just quit, give up; say bye. is my pride that important? sometimes i wonder. give up; walk off. stay; suffer more/get better. its my choice. my choice. im tired. dear says ive stopped talking about massu.. i realized too.. today is jus not my day. better days will come... smile enqi... hide it well... till u know how to deal with it properly... |
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Tuesday, January 18, 2011
  compare. which was happier? me in the past, or now. |
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be confident of yourself. you never know who's drawing inspiration from you. be happy and smile. you never know who's looking at you from afar. be yourself, live your feelings honestly!! (Y) happy days will come, definitely!! ^^~ smile, to a better tomorrow. hehe. |
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Monday, January 17, 2011
ALYAH DINAH THANKS FOR STANDING BY ME TODAY. 17/01/2010. TWICE I WANTED HUG U, BUT U JUAL MAHAL. alyah says: yay! eh in the end you never hug me siaaaa ): hahaha i jual mahal just now XP THE HAND THINGY THAT WE DID, I HEARTXZX IT. ^_^ im thankful.. i smiling. -.- bitchyyy max. HAHAHAAAHAH!!!!! i love us. i love everything we do. hehe. we met cause of softball. will we continue walking down our paths together cause of softball still? university.. hehe ^^ alyah says: annor! we old already how we laugh hard ah? hahahah later keep on coughing coughing hahahure the one who makes me laugh when i know im about to cry. ^^ |
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Sunday, January 16, 2011
来了. time has come!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! setting moiiself free!!! i know dear dear will be with me. alyah dinah, u better be there when i need u man. bitchyyyy. HAHAHAHAA. saranghae. x.x |
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Saturday, January 15, 2011
只要准备好明天的微笑 无论在天涯海角 相信爱 总会千方百计把你寻找~ 只要准备好明天的微笑 当你想拥抱 爱总会出其不意静静悄悄来到 也许在生命里的某个转角 另一个人会给你默契相同微笑~ ^_^ tomorrow will be a happy day! ashita ha zettai ni ureshii hi! it isnt all that bad after all! ^^~ at least i still have all my friends. i still have my eyes to see everything. to see the world.. =]]]]]! |
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Wednesday, January 12, 2011
 do u still remember? haha. what's this feeling of longing.. i miss the old me. everything then.. we were all so happy. innocently happy. is this how it feels like, to grow up? if given a choice, i would rather not grow up. |
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Monday, January 10, 2011
my thoughts can't focus! LOL. for today. saltiest maggie ever eaten. took a picture during training. saw dear's tak balance face when train braked suddenly. waved to him. HAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHA AWESOME LA TODAY. HEHE. i ate an apple to end my happy day today. Happy 3rd monthsary dear! <3 ^_^
oh, the rain today. awesome la. HAHA. drenched, but i like!!! *copy paste from dear's blog, "friendly rain" HAHA |
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Sunday, January 9, 2011
so tiredddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd. mentally, physically. both la. put icing after the cake has cooled. like chilled. my frosting.. the butter all melt. nb. but nvm. let's see how it turns out tml after a night in the fridge! surprise surprise~ i think im awesome at making butter cakes already. hehe. okok. humble. i pray for eternal peace and serenity. |
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Saturday, January 8, 2011
close those tired eyes, sleep your life away. soon. soon, it'll all end. it's about time. i wanna give up. cause i dont want to fight for something im not sure of. so not worth it. now.. how to give up. how. hmm.. LEAVE. |
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Friday, January 7, 2011
need.. to.. focus.. my studies.. my japanese.. my job.. my money.. my friends.. my responsibilities.. my everything.. my.. so many. so many!! ENQI JIAYOU. |
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Thursday, January 6, 2011
nothing's the same anymore.. those words that we said, those memories that we shared, do u still remember them? i dont think i recognise u anymore. i guess, change is the only constant. everything that happened in the past will only become a distant memory that... u'll treasure? i have no idea. |
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Monday, January 3, 2011
 picture says it all. I LOVE MY FRIENDS!!!!!!!!!!!!! LOL. oh gosh. HAHAHA |
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离开你我才找回自己那爱笑的眼睛。 |
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Sunday, January 2, 2011
everyone is making me smile to myself. i really really really love u all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HAHAHAHAAHA. looking forward to chinese new year, not cause of the money, but cause i'll be able to meet up with my friends!!!! ^_^ ok la, plus the $ too. HAHAH \ m / |
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Saturday, January 1, 2011
my 2010. -met cheryl and dinah. the 2 awesome people in me poly life. -met aisyah,artika,aqilah,leon,kim. totemo kawaii people!!!!!!! -met glenn. LOL. wad to say~ made friends w him cause of clubbing and alcohol. -_- wad else~ aiya, no point trying to remember. the feeling of forgetting everything the next morning when u wake up. 2011!!!! I LOVE BERVYN SHIHUI BEEHIAN VINCENT MARCUS RIMA WANTING MEIXI VENUS XUE FANG LISHAN GLENN. these are like the only people who will ever see me drunk. promise. LOL. I LOVE CHERYL TOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I LOVE EVERYONE VERY MUCH. HEHEHEHEHEHEHE. ^_^ |
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wad a night!!!!!!!!! HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE! ^_^ |
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