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Wednesday, January 19, 2011
i hate wednesdays. hate it, hate it, hate it, hate it. i feel useless, lousy, weak, scared. i trembled. i quivered. i.. i tried to smile to hide it. i tried my best. did it work? it might have.. but inside, im dying. i dont like this feeling.. enqi why are you so weak? why cant you have that much more of confidence? why? why? why? stupid. i want to cry, but no tears are coming out. is this what u call apathy? wad went wrong? sometimes.. i wonder if what im choosing to go through is all worth it. i have a choice, to just quit, give up; say bye. is my pride that important? sometimes i wonder. give up; walk off. stay; suffer more/get better. its my choice. my choice. im tired. dear says ive stopped talking about massu.. i realized too.. today is jus not my day. better days will come... smile enqi... hide it well... till u know how to deal with it properly... |
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-Mayfish, Dance Drill.
