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Thursday, December 30, 2010
   what i have been doing on 29th & 30th.i love life like this. hehe. all the treasured moments... i wonder wad will happen when im 28. HAHA. 31st DEC 2010. PARTY @ 10PM LATERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (Y) dance till we die~ |
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"I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best." — Marilyn Monroe. cool. because we're all different individuals. |
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Tuesday, December 28, 2010
i just realized how weak ive become. how scared i am to lose someone... does this happen to everyone? ure just afraid of losing someone or something suddenly.. i wanna start cherishing everything that i have!! but where do i start. how do i start. hmm. i dont wanna forget everything that happened in this life. cause its all part of me. ^_^ |
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    so sweeeeeetttttttttttt! |
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      wad i have been doing today. =D |
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     look wad i foundddd~ (Y) |
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Monday, December 27, 2010
The friends around you, one by one, Went climbing the stairs that lead to their dreams Even if you're the last of the list, don't fret If the wind comes blowing your way you will catch up on them and surpass them Rather than comparing yourself to someone else at midway You'd better believe your future self Run to the goal at your own pace! Chance No Junban- AKB48 |
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there's always a weakling in everyone. admit it. the fact that uve said it will make u stronger. im a weakling as well. sometimes when im scared, i try my best to put on a strong front. but my insides are a wreck already. i smile to hide everything. it works, ive learnt. sometimes u just wanna close ur eyes and rest in eternal peace. those moments when u feel so tired. u wish u could jus sleep ur life away. the weakling inside u will always be there, its just ur choice, whether u wanna show it to the world or not. for me, i'll only show it to people whom i can really trust. reeeeeaaaaalllyyyyyyyyy trust. |
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i was laughing so hard in the dream i had that i woke up. with a smile on my face. gosh im turning psychotic. LOL. パンさん is currently undergoing its primary fermentation in the rice cooker~~ i must really brush up on my Japanese. must, must, must!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! cannot let myself and Massu down. I shall slowly pick up Korean. hehe. cannot let Onew down oso. =D |
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Sunday, December 26, 2010
u think im pretty, without any makeup on. u think im funny, when i tell the punch line wrong. i can feel change coming. no regrets, just love. rather than regretting having not done something, just do it. lesson learnt. (Y) take a chance, dont ever look back!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! sometimes, you need to feel pain to wake up. if you really mean it, do it. else don't come bothering me. i love how beehian has enlightened me. GET A LIFE. \m/ |
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  must have had too much laughter with the hoseh babies yesterday night. laughing under the night sky, simply just chatting. awesome. rima asked me, " Enqi, very funny meh? " well..... i guess i needed that amount of smiles and laughter that much. i was happy to see everyone again. really. even when there's an internal conflict brewing. *ahem! *vincent! HAHA. but well, at least they dont show it. thats wad makes everything so retarded and funny. oh wells. this morning, i had a very weird dream. i only remember shihui in it. but i think the other hosehs were there too. we were on this train. cant rmb to where. outside the train, we were passing by those theme park places. like, clowns and stuffs thingy. super creepy. the next scene. i was supposed to pass this obstacle test. first try, i failed. then i got really scared. second try, i succeeded! apparently, i realized there was a button for me to press for that machine to stop moving, so i could clear it much more easily. then, i woke up. reasoning drawn from that dream, 1. u'll find surprises along the way. 2. don't think too much, overthinking leads to -ve thoughts. 3. just do it! i kept saying "Yossshhhh" while in the test. LOL. shows how much that has become a part of me aye. ive been getting alot of "Don't think, feel!" moments lately. HAHAHA. i loved wad beehian told me while on train home yesterday. ytd all of us like drunk liddat sia, while on the train home. talk so loud, laugh so loud. AHAHAHAAAHAH BUT WHATEVER. I DONT GIVE A DAMN, LOSERS WHO WERE ALL LOOKING. WE ARE HAPPY KIDS. ^_^ |
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Saturday, December 25, 2010
I don't wanna suffer with you. Don't drag me six feet under. You're you, I'm me. You don't belong near me. How do I even know if ure real to begin with. Reality is scary. Growing up is scary. I'm sure no one will be able to understand me. Sadly. If u think imma slut, Then I'll act like one for u to see. Happy christmas . |
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Thursday, December 23, 2010
Since ure not gonna do it, Maybe I should. Start giving up. Even artika's worried I'll get hurt, I'll be left hanging. Me and you, we're laughing cowards pretending to be strong. Who isn't.. We were separate individuals to begin with, I was alone, I sufferred alone, everything was done alone. But still, I made it through. I'm sure I still will this time round. (: The nut that's in my heart, it's gonna be so hard to crack. Don't bother trying, you won't succeed. Enqi is tired of thinking so much already. She's gonna give up already. |
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Tuesday, December 21, 2010
its so easy to be happy. when someone just smiles and go, "Happy Christmas!!!!!! ^^!!!!!" u feel happy. its so simple. really! = D |
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Monday, December 20, 2010
A second of Sadness means a Second of Happiness wasted ~! copied it from some random user on fb. cool pe. i love toys r us. HAHA. me: "eh!! panda!! *poke poke" -walks off- alvin: "that's a racoon." me: LOL HAHAAHAHAAH BEST MOMENT. I APPROVE. bless u boy. bless u. i'll pray for ur happiness. if.. i remember to. LOL. ~_~ for some weird reason, im craving for big fat MOS Burger fries. LOL |
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duno wad to say la. |
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Sunday, December 19, 2010
 somehow, im a little jealous. LOL a little. *does taemin's a little sign. HAHA THEY ARE SO CUTE! YAPPARI, TEGOMASU! ^_^ |
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     wouldn't it be nice if things stayed simple?^_^ after today, i realized i would wanna work with kids aged 5 to 8 or 9. a BIG NO NO for kids aged 3. LOL. but oh wells. at least i had cookies as the end product in the end. but...... i think im happier baking cupcakes, cakes and bread! well... till i master making a proper dough. LOL. jyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa~ byebye! tummy pain. fml. ow. |
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Saturday, December 18, 2010
jump into it, no regrets. sounds awesome know. this has been the life that ive told myself to lead since secondary 5. i lost it along the way in recent days, but i think i found it. even massu's singing about, "Dont think! Feel!" i love this post. cool. |
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OKAY. TIME TO MAKE UP MY MIND. ITS ENOUGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! no more. i am not going to jump. no no. enough. i shall be happy. without you. WITHOUT YOU. (: heaven has sent me away, i should not defy it. be a good girl, listen to advice. IM NOT BUYING IT. NAH UH. I BELIEVING IN ALMOST EVERYTHING AND ANYTHING, EXCEPT WHEN IT COMES TO STUFFS LIKE THIS. IM PROUD OF IT. (Y) BOOM BOOM BOOM, EVEN BRIGHTER THAN THE MOON. |
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Friday, December 17, 2010
 u spin my head right round right round~ i shall do baking on sunday. hehe. hope my cousins can come over........... i wanna make a trip down to plaza sing and jp's popular. *thoughts running in head. I LIKE TO PRETEND. LIFE IS 90% PRETENCE. I GUESS? HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA I DONT RECOGNIZE MYSELF ANYMORE. !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SHUT UP & PUT UR $ WHERE UR MOUTH IS~ |
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Thursday, December 16, 2010
should i change my life.. or miss my flight? |
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Wednesday, December 15, 2010
The ideal temperature for yeast growth is 100 to 115 degrees F., but for leavening purposes, the ideal temperature is 80 to 95 degrees F. If the yeast grows too quickly, it will produce large bubble pockets in the end product. Yeast begins to die at 120 degrees F. So, it is important to let your yeast dough rise in a spot where the temperature is regulated brush eggwash on the bread for the brown brown effect!!!!!!! for cookies, dont make the edges too thin. else easily get burnt. things ive learnt. LOL. weee~ since im gonna refer to 3 videos, its time to experiment! hehe. this holiday's mission, to bake the normal bread first. LOL. should i try bread rolls? hmmmmmmm............ okay. normal loaf of bread and some bread rolls. (Y) awesome. time to go wash up and head to bed. |
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 omg. i hope this really happens ne kaasan. then 28th to 10th April again. omg. time to disappear without anyone knowing. time to let go. time to go. omg. awesome. Enqi is happiexzx. |
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Tuesday, December 14, 2010
just got home not long from work. work today was awesome. aunty annie was super cute. first time i felt so drained from work. but its okay. at least i laughed till my tummy ached a little. "sibei dulan" HAHA. shangrila. here i come. *clapclaps. phew. i thought heaven really didnt want me to think of what was happening now. but apparently he does! \m/ YAY! ^_^ JCS Results came. well...... i did rather good! LOL. but. i was aiming for full marks for all aspects.... its okay Enqi. got another time. aim for full marks in the next level! yossssssssha! hwaiting! pleasant surprises that sprung on me. hehe. i love today. kyou to iu hi ha ni do to modoranai mono dakara~ we're both best on our own. (: i am too, definitely. me: "do u believe that i can make a rainbow appear in a cake?" kids: o_O? me: *shows pictures me: "if u just believe, anything can happen.." ^^ |
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Monday, December 13, 2010
wrong person in the wrong situation. love is like a cab. sometimes ure waiting for it, other times, its waiting for u. however, if uve got the patience to wait, it'll definitely come! i believe i'll be happier in other ways. Enqi is strong! ^_^ do something useful with your life girl. you can if u want to. if u want to.. SMILE YO! (Y) |
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Most people have a 1000 wishes for Christmas; A cancer patient only has one: To get better. im enlightened. |
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"I'm down but not out." should i try? escapism is despicable behavior. okay. i'll do what leon suggests. try. wed. if still nv get chosen, bug my mummy to go Taiwan. haha. escapism. desperate. haha.. but surprisingly.. i dont feel the energy to fight. why is that so. i hate this. really. i need to go. i want to go. i dont know what im saying already. mou ii yo. okay. so if wed really still cannot, my mother's packing me in her luggage, and we're heading off to Taiwan. happy or not. i duno lei. WTF IS WRONG WITH ME. WHY AM I NOT HAPPY WITH ANYTHING. OMFG. ENQI! ZZZZZ |
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 episode's 10 noona hontou ni kowai yo!!!! x.x kirai yo. hontou. onew-chan no kisu. shiawase yo.. "It didnt hurt my pride, because im Onew! ^^"kyaaaaaaa~
alrighttttt, these are the last few Onew moments to Yunhanam. Onew sangtae! (Onew condition) HAHA. i'll miss those moments. ._. dibidibi dib~ LOL. onew's imitation of jonghyun is awesomely loved. HAHAHAHAHA HOLIDAYS OFFICIALLY START TODAY. so boring. -.- |
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Sunday, December 12, 2010
They value people who take the time to understand the ISFP, and who support the ISFP in pursuing their goals in their own, unique way. People who don't know them well may see their unique way of life as a sign of carefree light-heartedness, but the ISFP actually takes life very seriously, constantly gathering specific information and shifting it through their value systems, in search for clarification and underlying meaning. ISFPs have no desire to lead or control others, just as they have no desire to be led or controlled by others. They need space and time alone to evaluate the circumstances of their life against their value system, and are likely to respect other people's needs for the same. The ISFP is likely to not give themself enough credit for the things which they do extremely well. Their strong value systems can lead them to be intensely perfectionist, and cause them to judge themselves with unneccesary harshness. The ISFP has many special gifts for the world, especially in the areas of creating artistic sensation, and selflessly serving others. Life is not likely to be extremely easy for the ISFP, because they take life so seriously, but they have the tools to make their lives and the lives of those close to them richly rewarding experiences. will put a great deal of effort and energy into tasks which they believe in. see. u jus have to make me BELIEVE. BELIEVE. yosh. Possible Career Paths for the ISFP: Child Care / Early Childhood Development Social Worker / Counselor Teacher Psychologist Veterinarian Pediatrician COOL. O_O VET,PSYCHOLOGIST,TEACHER. TOP3 CHOICES APPEARED. i think i'll have a tough time choosing my path in university liao... i can see it. jialat. With Introverted Feeling dominating their personality, they are more vulnerable then most to being hurt. Perhaps because of this, they tend to hold back part of themselves from others, and do not always say what they think or feel.TRUE EH. Very sensitive and easily hurt by rejection and harshness, they are sometimes drawn to turn their love towards creatures who will love them back unconditionally, such as animals and small chlidren. this was why i wanted to be a vet. saving animals are better than saving humans. haha! selfish thought right? but whatever. They can see something positive in everyone. They believe in individuals. If they give themselves the opportunity, an ISFP can become a much-needed source of self-esteem and confidence for people who cannot find it on their own. In this way, they can nurture a "sick soul" back to health. am i really that noble? LOL? May have skewed or unrealistic ideas about reality May be unable to acknowledge or hear anything that goes against their personal ideas and opinions. something about my fangirling fantasies. LOL! zz May be unaware of appropriate social behavior May be oblivious to their personal appearance, or to appropriate dress May come across as eccentric, or perhaps even generally strange to others, without being aware of it. i sound alien. HAHA. but wth. everyone is different~ so im not gonna careeeee. May be unable to see or understand anyone else's point of view May value their own opinions and feelings far above others May be unaware of how their behavior affects others May be oblivious to other people's need i am self-centered. May feel overwhelmed with tension and stress when someone expresses disagreement with the ISFP, or disapproval of the ISFP May develop strong judgments that are difficult to unseed against people who they perceive have been oppressive or suppressive to them Under great stress, may feel out of control and fearful, dwelling on the "dark side" of things i agree. The ISFP must consciously tell himself/herself that an opinion that does not concede with their own is not an indictment of their entire character. true. i am not weak. i can prove u wrong! They should try to see situations from other people's perspectives, without making personal judgments about the situations or the other people's perspectives. true..... Introverted Feeling with Extraverted Sensing. me. Introverted Sensing with Extraverted Feeling. dinah. this has got to be the longest post everrr. THANKS LEON GUOK. <3 |
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Saturday, December 11, 2010
Turn it up, turn it up for the people that say "we're moving on and we'll be okay". monday. shangrila/taiwan. or EGYPT. weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~ leave it up to fate liao. kaasan came to fetch me from work just now. hehe. i feel loved. on the bus ride home.. i was thinking, wad if something like that happens to me? and i felt disgusted. seriously. ew. get away from me. really. We understand that we're friends and it just ain't working, no point in the constant fighting. So we'll be grown ups, for a minute, and admit that we're just not in it. |
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Friday, December 10, 2010
 when ure genuinely happy, it shows. show me ur best smile! okay, sudden inspiration to just be happy. just keep smiling~ just keep smiling~ ^_^ why do i have to care so much when it wasnt even my problem to begin with? (Y) |
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wrong person in the wrong situation. yes, leave it hanging the way it is. im not gonna care. not gonna care anymore. im not gonna mean what i say too. ah, the contradiction. no wonder i couldnt sleep at night. why did this even have to happen. why couldnt we just lead our own lives happily? our own seperate lives. rain rain rain. fall. break. fuck it. i know im using shangrila as an opportunity to escape. escapism is despicable behavior.. i know. but what to do? okay la... if heaven want me to think, send me away. if heaven want me to just dont escape, let me stay. so yah. dont think so much liao. leave it up to fate liao. 10122010, the second monthsary with dear dear was AWEEEEEEEEESOME. screaming in the arcade, shooting dead people, big fat mutated worms who jump at you, snatching balls from each other, failing at DDR(*points to deardear), and lastly, taking neoprints using this reeeeaaally old machine which still has the date set in 2002. HAHA. oh, not forgetting, the fondue. KYA. saranghae. daijoubu!! akiramenai de!! hehe. ^_^ |
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Tuesday, December 7, 2010
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. |
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Monday, December 6, 2010
 one word,this is love. HAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAAHA. when i find a better word to describe this relationship that we share, "love" shall be the word. hehe. |
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i did it. i did it! ^_^ dont ever look down on me again. cause, i will prove you wrong. yes, i am that strong. YOSSSSSSSHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA! foi bom encontrar voce. |
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Sunday, December 5, 2010
 Masuda: I have this urge to spread happiness to everyone(laughs) aw massu. i do too. hehe. and. YOSH! TML! (Y) thou im having my menses, i sincerely hope i dont be a bitch tml. i think i should exit for awhile.i dont want things to go way out of hand. enqi, you shall not lose this last bit of happiness in you. |
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Saturday, December 4, 2010
 suffering from Onew Condition again. hehehehe. |
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 so sexy. *points to left side. my boy. HAHAHAHAHA |
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shh. keep quiet. too noisy. my head's spinning. |
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Friday, December 3, 2010
everyone is special in their own way. what makes me think that the same thing wouldnt happen to me? |
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 some fb campaign about child abuse.i chose hamtaro to represent my support! heheheheehehhe so cute. i miss hamtaro's adventures. =( OH. and Blue's Clues. HAHAHAAHAHAHAHA!!!!!  EPIC. 3 supposedly DEAD ugly sisters, and the fairy god mother posing. A Cinderella Story.awesome. this has got to be why im enjoying DD. ^_^ fire fire go away. come again, another day!?! |
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Wednesday, December 1, 2010
 so nostalgic the effect.hehehehheheheeheeheee. so.......................................................................................................... aiya, so many disturbing thoughts in my head. shall i think about them? i guess not. LOL. boy oh boy. how humans love deluding themselves into thinking they are happy creatures. i guess facing up to reality takes alot more courage than that right. *thoughtful face. let's just don't think! feel! weeeeeeeeeeeeeee~ ^_^ 4/5hours of sleep = on drugs liao next day. HAHA. i love my milians. why are they so cute? hehe. |
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